It happens to me as well. The church I attend is a Pentecostal church; I like it because I feel the presence of the Holy Spirit very strongly. When the music comes on and people are yelling, singing, dancing, and clapping, if I don't, I get stared at. I'm tired of thinking about it, but I still get pressured into being more sociable when I attend, and that part has lead me to skipping church on occasions. It's not a matter of me being stuck-up. It bothers me that people think that.
I think I'll be asking God if I should attend this church anymore at all. Currently, I'm awaiting communion and a baptism. I'd like both and the church my mother attends is preparing for both, but I am not interested in being pressured into acting precisely like everyone else.
I get ya.
I remember once when we bought a couple to church.
They had an Anglican background.
We are say in the service, I'm asking God, let it be calm, no words of knowledge, tongues and so on.
Guess what?
Yes it all happened.
Then God says to me, "You concentrate on me and let me go about my business"
Sister if there is one thing I would encourage you to do is go get baptised.
I believe it does not save you but I do believe it lays down a spiritual marker.
It doesn't have to be a spectacle, you don't have to give a big testimony.
I have baptised many people and quite a few of them that I spoke to about baptism didn't want to be because of the pressure I have said above.
When I have said to them what I mentioned above then they were baptised.
In fact if you were sat with me and my wife and you said you wanted to be baptised we would take you over to my in-laws and baptise in the river that flows beside their garden.
The following is in Acts, Phillp and the Ethiopian
Acts 8:34-39
34 So the eunuch answered Philip and said, “I ask you, of whom does the prophet say this, of himself or of some other man?” 35 Then Philip opened his mouth, and beginning at this Scripture, preached Jesus to him. 36 Now as they went down the road, they came to some water. And the eunuch said, “See, here is water. What hinders me from being baptized?”
37 Then Philip said, “If you believe with all your heart, you may.”
And he answered and said, “I believe that Jesus Christ is the Son of God.”
38 So he commanded the chariot to stand still. And both Philip and the eunuch went down into the water, and he baptized him. 39 Now when they came up out of the water, the Spirit of the Lord caught Philip away, so that the eunuch saw him no more; and he went on his way rejoicing.
You don't have to wait for baptism or wait to take communion.
I hope I don't add to any pressure.
The truth is there is no pressure being in Jesus