I am new here, and am a struggling severly disabled Christian. Sounds like a oxymoron. In a way I feel like Job. When I say I lost everything I literally lost everything, and everyone that meant something too me. I have even though about suicide. I joined cause this pit of despair has me sinking inside. I feel like God has abandoned me.
Brother I can relate 100%. I know the holes and traps our suffering in this world can snare us in when it comes to God, but please hear and understand me when I tell you that I now thank and praise God everyday for the toughest struggle I had to endure in my life that led me to Him in truth. I promise you I did not see it at all when I was going through it, but God uses all things for good, for those that love Him. I am so sorry to hear you find yourself in the middle of trials, but you're not alone, and there is always hope.
Father I pray you guard his heart in this time of struggle, guide His eyes to you, and comfort Him through your Spirit, and your children for the glory of You Kingdom, all in Jesus name, amen.
Please brother message me any time, if you need anyone to talk to, especially the listening part, I'm here, other than that try to have a better day at least. We love you man.