Mothers day is always a very profound day for me not because I'm a mother obviously but because all my life I never had a mom who cared about me. For such a long time I wanted to know what it was like to be loved and cared about by my mom, I remember watching t.v. shows or movies and feeling envious of the kids in them whose mom's loved them and cared about them and seeing how those kids took it for granted having no idea what they had. I also never had a dad who cared about me but I didn't mind that so much as I did having a mom.
But then here on cc I gained not one but two moms who gave me what I never had in life and every mothers day I take reverence in the fact that God gave me them. It's kind of selfish really how mothers day to me is really more about me but I have always treasured these two wonderful women who showed me what it is like to be loved and cared about from a motherly love. Lots of people have moms and dads and have no idea what they have, they don't know what it feels like to watch others have these parents who are by far not perfect but love them. In fact to be honest it was specifically because of how unloved and alone that brought me to God to begin with, I remember the very day he came into my heart and I remember the tender love he poured into me I could feel the depth of his affection and endearment he had for me something I had never known and longed for so much.
And then for these two women who had never even met me in real life had adopted me as their own child while my foster mom showed me nothing of any kind of love or care.... They will never know or understand how much it means to me and how precious they both are to me. So to you notmyown (aka psychomom) and to you Jesuslives I want you both to know how precious you both are to me and how I want to grow into a man that will make you both proud.
But then here on cc I gained not one but two moms who gave me what I never had in life and every mothers day I take reverence in the fact that God gave me them. It's kind of selfish really how mothers day to me is really more about me but I have always treasured these two wonderful women who showed me what it is like to be loved and cared about from a motherly love. Lots of people have moms and dads and have no idea what they have, they don't know what it feels like to watch others have these parents who are by far not perfect but love them. In fact to be honest it was specifically because of how unloved and alone that brought me to God to begin with, I remember the very day he came into my heart and I remember the tender love he poured into me I could feel the depth of his affection and endearment he had for me something I had never known and longed for so much.
And then for these two women who had never even met me in real life had adopted me as their own child while my foster mom showed me nothing of any kind of love or care.... They will never know or understand how much it means to me and how precious they both are to me. So to you notmyown (aka psychomom) and to you Jesuslives I want you both to know how precious you both are to me and how I want to grow into a man that will make you both proud.
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