Please pray for me. Since March 2017, I have been from one trouble to another. I even compromisedo my faith to feed my family. I had to do the unusual to.put food on my table. All theses is making me suicidal. Pray for me
Brother I will pray, I understand exactly how you're feeling. I want to start with encouraging you by pointing you to the only hope we as men have, that is Jesus, and He can make it better. After a motorcycle wreak left me with a completely flail (totally useless) right arm, the hand the world dealt me following that resulted in feeling like killing myself for 2 solid years. I would contemplate doing it at least once every 5 minutes of every day for 2 years, and I could justify doing it in every way but my boys. I could not leave my boys to face this world with a "my dad killed himself" story, that and I knew that no other man would step in and go as far for them as their own father.
Now is the time brother, your family needs you too. This was when God granted me true repentance, I knew my way lead no where and I could not do it (life in general) on my own anymore. Please keep in mind that this was after around 5 years of thinking of myself as Christian, not only that but at this moment I really didn't "buy into" the whole God thing if I ever truly had at all anyway. This is the time brother, realize your way is no way at all, die to yourself and be raised in truth, in Jesus name. His yolk is light man, and He will provide. He will make you all new, things will be so much more clear in so many ways and you will know that He is good. Go to Him, leave yourself behind, watch and be utterly amazed.
Father, I pray that you draw this brother closer to yourself, help to still His mind and give Him the peace inside that only You give so that he can see the hope that only You provide. Please help this man to find the means to feed his family, to know your true nature, and to bring Jesus name the glory only He is worthy of. I pray this all in Jesus name, the name above all names. Amen
Brother I can't do a whole lot from this far away, but please hit me up anytime and I will at least be here to talk and maybe help to work through whatever knots are holding you back. Thanks for coming here to share.