Don't go to bed down on yourself blue.
Please read and talk to Him. We all jumped on you and that's wrong. He's never angry for what we were taught in the past. So if we are deficient, and we all are, we seek Him. He will always come to us and build us up.
not me,I noticed she was talking on a perspective,like for example how I could from a lamens stand point talk on how Jesus to others was rather abrupt and rather unpredictable at times in the bible like how it looked like he ditched Mary and Joseph,but he was doing what he was supposed to do,serving God,Jesus is by far perhaps the most interesting "person"/"deity" in the bible because he did so many things that,"an ordinary person" "can't wrap their head around either at all or immediately" whether his,earthly father,mother,kindred or disciples or enemies,he always"grasped everyone's attention" him staying behind at twelve to go about his heavenly father's business is just one example of how,he is "confusing" to us and others,and why he is still someone we constantly speculate about,especially concerning "his last days in the flesh" we "would like to know" that's why we "fellowship" if anyone thinks they "know" all about Jesus,they are sorely mistaken,we cannot fathom all he did and many of his reasons and parables,but we can "strive to do what is right for him".
Everyone has a "personal view" on Jesus blue lady bug is no exception,why?
Because we are all different we wonder about different aspects everyday,we long to do right by Jesus to show that we appreciate all he did and so we "stay interested" in what we think and what we can learn about Jesus,I mean who wouldn't want to have a more in depth look into Jesus's life?
I wish myself that I could witness even just a portion of the events in the bible concerning him but I can't,speculation can be very bad of course but sometimes it can lead us to answers,because we start thinking "what happened" and "why",Jesus was and still is sinless but it doesn't hurt anyone to think on "what was it like for Jesus to be as a man yet still God"?
did he have ambitions?
Was he frightened before he was crucified?
I mean this our saviour and God we're talking about here whom came as a man yet still God,for all to have a hope of many things,it ought always to be lingering in our minds for it wasn't us that didn't anything to deserve all he did yet he still went forward for our sakes to do all that was prophesied in the law.