Respectfully, I still want to say, "Bah Humbug." I don't want to sound judgmental, but becoming a godly man is not something one tries and then gives up on. It is its own reward. I was just trying to encourage you to do the most important thing in life, and hoping, in my naiveté, that it would lead to that which you really long for most of all.
This love stuff usually doesn't bother me but lately I've had no one to talk to and the friend that I used to chat with no longer chats with me and the forums here aren't as fun as they used to be so my life has suddenly gotten a whole lot lonelier.