I'm kind of over "life" right now. Not suicidal at all (been there, done that, never again) I just...IDK I feel so tired and done.
Existential crisis or whatever you want to call it.
Existential crisis or whatever you want to call it.
I'm kind of over "life" right now. Not suicidal at all (been there, done that, never again) I just...IDK I feel so tired and done.
Existential crisis or whatever you want to call it.
Odd, I can't think of anything I want. I came up here to east TN to visit Mom and I had just about what I needed for gas for the trip. She seems to feel she has to give me $300 for coming up here. When I objected to her subsidizing my vacation she said, "Don't spoil it by arguing, just accept it." But the only thing I can think of to do with the money is hold it to pay some future bills.
What? I already have all I need and almost all I want. Maybe I just have no imagination...

Wow, I've never even heard of a fruit pizza, but now I must add it to my likes!!Made a cheesecake fruit pizza for my work potluck tomorrow. It's my grandma's recipe. I'm kind of proud of it. I think I'm mainly proud at how fairly evenly I cut the slices, which you can't really tell, but usually I am AWFUL at cutting things evenly - brownies, pizza, casseroles... which is kind of strange considering how much I eyeball things like measuring for cooking, painting and mixing colors, etc.
Behold the masterpiece.
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My name is Lynx and I approve this pizza.Made a cheesecake fruit pizza for my work potluck tomorrow. It's my grandma's recipe. I'm kind of proud of it. I think I'm mainly proud at how fairly evenly I cut the slices, which you can't really tell, but usually I am AWFUL at cutting things evenly - brownies, pizza, casseroles... which is kind of strange considering how much I eyeball things like measuring for cooking, painting and mixing colors, etc.
Behold the masterpiece.
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Made a cheesecake fruit pizza for my work potluck tomorrow. It's my grandma's recipe. I'm kind of proud of it. I think I'm mainly proud at how fairly evenly I cut the slices, which you can't really tell, but usually I am AWFUL at cutting things evenly - brownies, pizza, casseroles... which is kind of strange considering how much I eyeball things like measuring for cooking, painting and mixing colors, etc.
Behold the masterpiece.
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My son who is 19 told me to prepare myself because his friend (who has become a member of our family, calls me his 2nd mom etc) has something to tell me and he was very nervous. Well he came over last night to talk. His GF is pregnant.
He is a year younger than my son, a senior in HS, is intellectually gifted and earned and scholarship to a great university next year, and was very active in his church but over past 8 months has allowed his part time job to interfere with church (I have talked to him about this)
He was worried I would be dissappointed in him. All I could think to do was hug him and say that my love for him doesn't change or diminish during times when I fear for him, or am disappointed in his choices etc..
I didn't know what to say to him as it wasn't the time to have lengthy discussions but I was blind sided and it was very late. Now I am still at a loss and overwhelmed with what God would have me do with this.
He decided to not accept the scholarship and attend a local university. He said they were not going to get married and move in together. He is going to work more hours immediately even while going to school....so many choices ..
Praying for wisdom on how to counsel, witness, and support this young man who is like a son to me.
I can't offer a lot of advice, besides to maybe discourage talking to him about the "consequences" or "wrongness" of his actions. Here's the thing - He already knows, and besides the life changes he has to make, I guarantee he feels guilty and ashamed about it.
My cousin got pregnant out of wedlock last year (to the guy she had been dating for a long time and they were going to get married anyway, but...still obviously not the best decision as they weren't planning for it) and my grandma lost it. Shunned my cousin, said nasty things (that were apparently in the "right spirit to try and get her to come back to the Lord" but let me tell you, they were not). Now that the baby is here they are doing better and the relationship has gotten better, but there is residual bitterness I am sure.
In my opinion, what's done is done. You can't undo the fact that they got pregnant out of wedlock, so to me there is no use beating the dead horse of what has already happened. You can only go forward. Hopefully that makes sense, I don't mean it to sound harsh and it doesn't seem like that is what you were going toJust wanted to share a personal experience of how if the past is focused on, it causes a rift in the present relationship. I mean, address it if you must, but certainly do not dwell on it.
pics, please!


6 cop cars across the street at the pawn shop. i can see 3 or 4 guys handcuffed, sitting on the ground. i wonder what happened. lol