Thank you all for the "welcome back". It has been a really rough time lately. Some of you know i have really bad arthritis...well it got worse. But, i am now working full time at Lowes as the plumbing pro. (A prayer answered as i wanted full time). Some of you also know my marriage was pretty rocky. Well through much praye, over two years, we seperated in January and may be finalizing the divorce tomorrow. (Nope i did not take that well and am still struggling with it).
No i am not telling this for sympathy but because you are all my brothers and sisters in Christ so you should know what has happened to me since i left and why i left.
Yes i hit a pretty hard depression because of those things. Depression is one of satans greatest weapons against us because it takes our eyes off of God and places them on us. Well God wouldnt let me go so easily. Once we are His children He never lets us go. My faith never faultered but because of my "self pitty" I myself muddied the water a bit. But, our "mud" cannot alter the cleasing water of Christ. We just see it that way through eyes that are blinded by "self". If it wasnt for the grace of God and my faith in God i have no idea where i would be.
I read something the other day in a Christian publication i receive once a month. The article is called "bearing and enduring". (I am changing the writing just a bit to be neither male or female because it was about a woman the author knew).
"We look at their pain and say "here is a person That God did not love." Or we could say "here is a person whom God loved so deeply that He would entrust such pain and suffering to them, knowing that they would endure."
I never thought of it that way before and i think that may be true.