Good morning everyone...
I've almost tried several times to close my account... delete everything in my profile and just... 'exist'... then I stop myself and I realize that... I get on here every morning (as routine) maybe add a few words... comments or something, then I go to work and sometimes I dont get back on till the next morning. It sometimes feels like getting on here is reading the newpapers... which is kinda nice I guess... but sucks at the same time. I've hit a very rough patch here recently... and to me... its quite embarrassing.... but it is what it is..
I used to come on here looking for fun... joke around and banter back and fourth, but not as of late. This rough patch I've hit has made me REALLY think about things in my life, things I can most certainly do without...and Being on CC is something I can do without... but It's like I've said.... Im reading the news paper when i get on here in the mornings. I don't really want to just "leave" or disappear and never come back... but at the same time... It's not a popularity contest to me either. I just need some good friends to lift me and my family up in prayer, and basically tell me "everything will be ok sugar....
) Cause lets face it.... lol..Nothing is gonna be perfect in OUR world, but in HIS eyes its always perfect. You all dont realize how often I have to tell myself daily that I am perfectly made in HIS image.... NOT my own. When I hit patches like this... It takes me awhile to come back out... and over that hump in the road and dodge all the other ruts that are in the road.
I have my health, I have my house, I have my family... friends, transportation to work and home... My husband... my mother whos back in my life...Close friends from church, and most of all... all you wonderful people from CC <3
I AM thankful for my many blessings... and I DO pray daily... I just have to kick my own little booty in gear sometimes and keep praising him for all he's done and will continue to do.