Time for another episode of Keepin' it Real with TannerBrody, so pull up your big boy pants if you're easily offended as it's about to get pg-13 up in here.
First off, I don't know who invented the over used phrase above "Suicide is a PERMANENT solution to a TEMPORARY problem." ugh.... no it's not. My uncle commited suicide last year at the age of 61. He was suffering from brain cancer and had 6 months to live. His situation was defininatly NOT temporary. He decided to check out early instead of becoming a bed ridden shell of his former self and hopefully soon many states will follow Oregons's lead to allow physican assisted suicide. For anyone here who doesn't believe in it, just head on over to YouTube and watch the video of the guy who was bitten by a rabied bat. They recorded his situation as a case study for medical students. The treatment for rabies infection? Sedate you with enough drugs to try and calm you as you slowly pass into the most painful form of insanity imaginable as the virus literally melts your brain. I'm not going to post the link here for obvious reasons, but imagine how many people have to deal with these kinds of conditions every day around the world. If I was told that I only had 6 months to live I would go out and make the most out of my life, but if I was told that soon I would not be able to walk, talk, or bath myself and I would become a vegatable I would hope the state would allow me the dignity to end it myself.
So why am I bringing all this up? Because your problem Levi has little to do with your sexuality or lifestyle chioces and more to do with simply being a silly teenager in an immature relationship. If you had never brought up your sexuality, everyone would have just thought you were like any other 15 yr old kid arguing with their partner because that's what young angst is. My point is that someday you'll discover real world problems and look back at your teen years like they never mattered. If you told us you were hooked on drugs I would say go to rehab. If you were feeling depressed even when life is good I would say go see a psychiatrist. Just take a look at the thread here asking "What were you like in High School?" Almost everyone here on this forum went through some form of rejection or self identity issues at your age. Focus on God and yourself, join a band, play sports, travel or learn a new language, but most importantly take time to get to know yourself. Everything else will fall into place. Arguing over your XBOX or getting depressed because you found out Taylor Swift has a headache are not reasons to commit suicide.
btw, don't let any neanderthals here tell you being gay is wrong. If we still lived by old testment laws you wouldn't be able to eat shell fish or wear clothes with two different kinds of thread. I see that you live in the u.k.. I just watched the film 'The Imitation Game' last night about Alan Turing. He was a famous British mathmatician who helped crack the Enigma code that helped the allies defeat Hitler and win WW2. His gift for helping save the world? He was arrested for being homosexual and chemically casturated. In 2013 Queen Elizabeth II granted him a full posthumous pardon for "the appaling way he was treated by the government." Be glad you live as a gay man today rather than 100 yrs ago when being gay or black could get you hung from a tree. Times are changing for the better and being young means times on your side. You have so much to live for. Like the great Buddhist philopsher Confuciois said, (or maybe it was Vanilla Ice?), "Yo - yesterdays history... tommorows a mystery. Word."
"Be yourself. Everyone else is already taken." - Oscar Wilde (another great man who spent 2 years in prison for being gay)
* You are delusional if you don't think suicide is a permanent solution. Once you're dead, you are dead. You don't rise from the ashes like a phoenix. :/ I do agree, however, that if the situation is grave enough, (no pun intended), then that person should be allowed to go the way they want to, instead of being ravaged by rabies or some other brain-killing disease. However, Levi doesn't have rabies, he has depression. Depression IS treatable, and with God's help it CAN be overcome. What Levi needs to do is call upon God to pull him out of the pit he is in. I've had depression for even longer than Levi has been alive.. God pulled me out of my dark pit and back into His light.
And he will most definitely do the same for Levi. So stop with the "suicide isn't permanent" garbage..
