So... cause of a couple things that happened recently i'm really hurt and pissed off and frustrated and i really don't know what to do. I've been stressed and depressed for 2 days. I'm worn out all the time. I keep wanting to eat, no matter how much i eat. I have TMJ, so when i'm tense i clench my jaws and flares my TMJ up, so since i've been so tense my jaws keep tightening and i can't stop, and now my face hurts. My head is full of pressure constantly and having headaches. I've felt some anxiety return.
I'm just so tired. Tired of God. Tired of helping.. caring. Tired of people. I'm sitting here now and there's no one to turn to. All i have to do is just sit and wallow and be alone. Tired of things working against me more than for me. Tired of not having hope, and the occasional times i muster up any hope it just gets squashed and rubbed in my face.
And no, i'm not thinking of killing myself, as some of the veteran users may wonder.
And no, i honestly don't care if you, or anyone you've known, has felt like this too. You telling me how you have gone through this and God pulled you out is of zero help to me. So spare me the sermon.
so tired