"Israel"?I just noticed that the name Isreal is the joining of the words "is real" as in God is real. I think my mind just exploded!![]()
Sorry this happened Ugly... I think it shows a lot that you apologized. I'll pray for reconciliation for you. Maybe they just need time to let it soak in. Or, they had to read and run. I do that sometimes. I like to take my time forming important responses, so I sometimes save them for evening when I am less distracted. *poke *hug
Oh man. This is a HUGE let down. HUGE I tell you!!"Israel"?
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You said she read your apology. That sounds like she acknowledged you. Sometimes people require more time to process and actually respond than we presume they need in this kind of a situation. Don't mark it up as a loss just yet. Hang in there.Thanks Grace.
But she's had over 24 hours to say anything at all, even 'hey i'm busy i'll respond later'. She's found time to spend on FB posting pictures and doing other things, just not time to even acknowledge me in any way.
I just noticed that the name Isreal is the joining of the words "is real" as in God is real. I think my mind just exploded!![]()
"Israel"?
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I've noticed lately that I'm not as open as I once was. And it doesn't bother me, but it sort of bothers me that it doesn't bother me.
Oh man. This is a HUGE let down. HUGE I tell you!!![]()
i have done nothing productive today.
like... nothing at all lol
So, this week, i've had more run ins with people on the forums than usual.
Got into a huge blowout with a good friend that became so irate i had to block them on FB to stop them from yelling at me.
Another very close friend and i had a misunderstanding. I got advice from someone else on how to handle it and they made me aware that this person is different form people i normally deal with and i needed to learn t deal with them differently. So i went back to them and apologized, explained myself and what i'd learned. It's been 24 hours since i can confirm they read my apology, yet they haven't responded with a single word.
I'm beginning to think i need to hide away for a little while. This is apparently not a good time for me to be interacting with people.
When I was in South Dakota, we had a weekend where we let the kids stay overnight, for a weekend. We took in a few teen girls from a shelter on the reservation. I think it was more of an alternative housing, like an alternative school? I don't know. I don't remember. I just remember thinking, "These girls are gonna be rough around the edges" but what I didn't realize was just HOW rough. Life is extremely difficult for all on the rez. I have so many stories I could tell, but that's not the point. It was a very difficult weekend in every way. I can't tell if I broke through with them or not at all. Though, two of them accepted my friend request on Facebook shortly after, so that's something, I suppose.
It's been almost 3 years, I can still see their posts, so I know they haven't unfriended me. Hidden me, maybe. I don't know.
One of them is now pregnant. Her parents kicked her out.
The other has been posting suicidal statuses. There have already been at least 5 suicides this year, three of them children under 13 years old.
My heart is aching. I am crying and praying hard, but I still feel so useless and helpless. I could message them. They don't trust white people. They don't trust Christians. The worst they could do is message me back with biting words. I just wouldn't know what to say. Everything sounds cliche and I don't even know if they remember me. For now I will pray and see how the Spirit leads.
So another CCer on 9gag eh.
Depression, huh? I don't know what the anxiety + stress is like, but I know the former. My heart goes out to you, bud. If only we were local so I could take you shopping for clothes and shoes. That always alleviates the saddies, right?Mild depression and moderate anxiety and stress - no surprise there, but not what I wanted to hear. Thanks, Doc.
Depression, huh? I don't know what the anxiety + stress is like, but I know the former. My heart goes out to you, bud. If only we were local so I could take you shopping for clothes and shoes. That always alleviates the saddies, right?
But seriously: praying for ya! Let us know if you need anything.