Streams of Consciousness & Thoughts~~~

[Lynx]

To quote the Bible, "Have ye received the Holy Ghost since ye believed?"

 

[lil_christian]

I honestly feel like calling it quits. I get on a spiritual high, and yay God is great, life is good. Generally, a day or so later feelings have passed and I'm back to normal "me" living, giving only the occasional thought about God. This a never ending cycle. Sometimes I try and do better but it's just that, me trying.

I've surrendered to God (or so I have thought) and it seems like nothing changes, I'm the same person, how will I ever know if I'm saved? I mean, I think I've been saved twice before, but are either one of them true? I'm not really part of either church I attend, I don't really talk to people, I'm not involved. To me, for the most part, talking to people at church is unnecessary...I'm not going to share my struggles with you, not going to share my heart. I'm reserved and I feel like to be a Christian I can't be myself...can't be alone, can't get the "help" I need.

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I feel like i'm trying to be somebody who I don't want to be. I'm to the point of not caring anymore, just tap out and call it quits.

Praying for you. Remember, faith is not a feeling. If it were, I'm pretty sure I would have tapped out a long time ago. All is not lost. Try to find at least one person to connect with and talk to about these things, to keep you accountable. Accountability is important. Accountability can give you that bit of a nudge that you need.

Don't give up.

 

[violakat]

I honestly feel like calling it quits. I get on a spiritual high, and yay God is great, life is good. Generally, a day or so later feelings have passed and I'm back to normal "me" living, giving only the occasional thought about God. This a never ending cycle. Sometimes I try and do better but it's just that, me trying.

I've surrendered to God (or so I have thought) and it seems like nothing changes, I'm the same person, how will I ever know if I'm saved? I mean, I think I've been saved twice before, but are either one of them true? I'm not really part of either church I attend, I don't really talk to people, I'm not involved. To me, for the most part, talking to people at church is unnecessary...I'm not going to share my struggles with you, not going to share my heart. I'm reserved and I feel like to be a Christian I can't be myself...can't be alone, can't get the "help" I need.

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I feel like i'm trying to be somebody who I don't want to be. I'm to the point of not caring anymore, just tap out and call it quits.

Bugeye, if we are all honest, we have all been there. Every person who has been a Christian has struggles with who they are. Paul didn't understand why he committed the sins he did, even though he didn't want to. Peter, who knew Jesus intimately, denied Christ three times before Christ died on the cross. And both men were greats in the eyes of the Christian world. So, if they stumble and fall and pick themselves up, so can you. Yes, you are going to sin, and that's cause you are living in a fleshly body, a body that was born into corruption. And honestly, nothing you can do will save you or cause you to lose your Salvation. How often have you been reading your Bible lately? I admit, I'm not one of the greatest, and when that happens, that's usually when I start to feel bad about myself. And remember that it's not a yearly battle, but a daily battle. That's why we are called to pick up our cross daily.

 

[ArtsieSteph]

Im procrastinating on an essay. MMMMMMMMMMMMMMMmmmmmmmmeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeh.

 

[Grace-Like-Rain]

I honestly feel like calling it quits. I get on a spiritual high, and yay God is great, life is good. Generally, a day or so later feelings have passed and I'm back to normal "me" living, giving only the occasional thought about God. This a never ending cycle. Sometimes I try and do better but it's just that, me trying.

I've surrendered to God (or so I have thought) and it seems like nothing changes, I'm the same person, how will I ever know if I'm saved? I mean, I think I've been saved twice before, but are either one of them true? I'm not really part of either church I attend, I don't really talk to people, I'm not involved. To me, for the most part, talking to people at church is unnecessary...I'm not going to share my struggles with you, not going to share my heart. I'm reserved and I feel like to be a Christian I can't be myself...can't be alone, can't get the "help" I need.
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I feel like i'm trying to be somebody who I don't want to be. I'm to the point of not caring anymore, just tap out and call it quits.

Hey Bugs, if the Holy Spirit wasn't working in your life as an active resident, you wouldn't be struggling with this. The fact that you are, gives me confidence that you know Christ. Also, your salvation doesn't depend on what you do. It's dependent only on the blood of Christ and the grace of God. You can breathe, knowing your sins have been paid for and you belong to God. He isn't going to let you go. He knows that you are learning and struggling and working on dying to self and living in him.

Faith is a journey. Spiritual maturity is a long long road. We don't instantly become perfect Christians. God knows how difficult it is for us to discipline ourselves to a closer walk with him.

Does a father watch his toddler learn to walk, falling down and getting up and falling down, and feel anger at his lack of progress? Or is he filled with love and pride over those first stumbling steps, and the determination to keep trying? I'm thinking God is looking down on you as a loving father. Don't be discouraged at your progress.

Isaiah 41:10 Fear not, for I am with you; be not dismayed, for I am your God; I will strengthen you, I will help you, I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.

2 Cor 12:9-10 And He has said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for power is perfected in weakness." Most gladly, therefore, I will rather boast about my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may dwell in me. Therefore I am well content with weaknesses, with insults, with distresses, with persecutions, with difficulties, for Christ's sake; for when I am weak, then I am strong.

 

[lil_christian]

I'm glad I have my job, but that feeling to do something more with my life just gnaws away at me.

 

[seoulsearch]

Come to Singles Chat for fun and fellowship, everyone!! Lots of cool people on right now, including a few cameo guest appearances!!

 

[cinder]

I honestly feel like calling it quits. I get on a spiritual high, and yay God is great, life is good. Generally, a day or so later feelings have passed and I'm back to normal "me" living, giving only the occasional thought about God. This a never ending cycle. Sometimes I try and do better but it's just that, me trying.

I've surrendered to God (or so I have thought) and it seems like nothing changes, I'm the same person, how will I ever know if I'm saved? I mean, I think I've been saved twice before, but are either one of them true? I'm not really part of either church I attend, I don't really talk to people, I'm not involved. To me, for the most part, talking to people at church is unnecessary...I'm not going to share my struggles with you, not going to share my heart. I'm reserved and I feel like to be a Christian I can't be myself...can't be alone, can't get the "help" I need.

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I feel like i'm trying to be somebody who I don't want to be. I'm to the point of not caring anymore, just tap out and call it quits.

This song came to mind too (yay youtube for making them all so easily available).

[video=youtube_share;zvgEDxy78dQ]http://youtu.be/zvgEDxy78dQ[/video]

 

[wisebeardman]

Come to Singles Chat for fun and fellowship, everyone!! Lots of cool people on right now, including a few cameo guest appearances!!

I don't do chat. inconsiderate people who insist on posting garbage images thus lagging out people who are on crap connections such as myself totally ruined it for me.

never again.

 

[seoulsearch]

Bugs,

We really care about you and have all been in a similar place. I myself have wanted to walk away from the church many times because I felt like I was being forced into a mold that I would never fit.

Someone in my family walked away from the church because he said, "Christianity is a cult that threatens you with hell if you don't do what they want."

And do you want to know the truth? Some days I feel the same way. Church is often the last place I would ever go to with my problems because I already know what they're going to say--they'll point out the million and one things I'm doing wrong and then tell me to pray more, read the Bible more, and have more faith, even if one is spending all their spare time doing just that.

You are not alone in how you feel. Please feel free to contact any one of us if you would like to talk or vent. *Hugs*

 

[seoulsearch]

I don't do chat. inconsiderate people who insist on posting garbage images thus lagging out people who are on crap connections such as myself totally ruined it for me.

never again.

It's all your own choice, Wise. But if you change your mind you are welcome anytime.

 

[AsifinPassing]

Uhm...

 

[Grace-Like-Rain]

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Uhm...

*pulls out a whole dollar*

You look like you need more than one.

 

[Lynx]

This song came to mind too (yay youtube for making them all so easily available).

[video=youtube_share;zvgEDxy78dQ]http://youtu.be/zvgEDxy78dQ[/video]

Yay for a Chris Rice fan! I have a lot of his albums.

The strength of my Lord's love
It shatters the scale
And its depth gives a new peak to climb

 

[Lynx]

I couldn't find the "saw this and it reminded me of you" thread, so I'll post this here. I saw this chat quote and it reminded me of... Shouryu.

<zalzane> I wonder how long it will end up taking for all this pony stuff to blow over
<Mutagene> too long
<pkmnBlue> 2 years
<zalzane> sailor moon took like 10 years
<zalzane> and every once in awhile I still hear people harp about sailor moon
<pkmnBlue> DUDE
<pkmnBlue> SAILOR MOON IS AWESOME
<Mutagene> sailor moon was good though
<pkmnBlue> Kuraitou: SAILOR MOON
<zalzane> oh my god

 

[Searching4Truth]

I bid thee adieu.

​The Drifter's Melody

The time soon comes for parting,
And our time is at an end,
The rest of your life is starting,
And we have no time at all to spend.

You knew one day you'd have to go,
But thought you'd have more time.
We can't reverse time's one-way flow,
But at least you'll have this rhyme.

You had your shining moments,
Upon this life's darkened stage,
And in my book of wonderments,
You'll never be just another page.

Like the exploding of a star,
You've changed me in and out,
Your light will travel with me far,
Past when all other lights go out.

 

[MissCris]

I bid thee adieu.

Wait, what? You're not LEAVING?!
...are/did you?

 

[VioletReigns]

I honestly feel like calling it quits. I get on a spiritual high, and yay God is great, life is good. Generally, a day or so later feelings have passed and I'm back to normal "me" living, giving only the occasional thought about God. This a never ending cycle. Sometimes I try and do better but it's just that, me trying.

I've surrendered to God (or so I have thought) and it seems like nothing changes, I'm the same person, how will I ever know if I'm saved? I mean, I think I've been saved twice before, but are either one of them true? I'm not really part of either church I attend, I don't really talk to people, I'm not involved. To me, for the most part, talking to people at church is unnecessary...I'm not going to share my struggles with you, not going to share my heart. I'm reserved and I feel like to be a Christian I can't be myself...can't be alone, can't get the "help" I need.

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I feel like i'm trying to be somebody who I don't want to be. I'm to the point of not caring anymore, just tap out and call it quits.

Hi Brother Bugeyes ~ Hope you don't mind me commenting about your comment, "it's just that, me trying."

Now, imagine walking side by side with Jesus Christ when He walked this earth and watching Him, listening to Him, observing how He showed kindness and mercy to people, the way He spoke, the patience and longsuffering, His selflessness and His humbleness how He washed the disciples' feet, how He was not even concerned with His own needs but the needs of others, the forgiveness He offered, the openness and acceptance He offered to even the ones people rejected.

Jesus didn't try. Jesus is love in action. Jesus chooses to love. It is a decision. The love of Christ is not a feeling. Love is an act. Jesus got tired. Jesus got exasperated. Jesus wept. Jesus hurt. Jesus was rejected and mocked. Jesus was beaten and crucified. But Jesus loved anyway.

I pray you read His Word for yourself personally. Walk with Him alone, talk to Him, listen to Him in your spirit, trust Him, depend on Him to show you in your own heart who He really is.

Read I Corinthians 13:4-13 and substitute the name of "Jesus" for the word love/charity. (Example: Jesus is patient, Jesus is kind.) And remember He is all those things to you. You don't have to try anymore. Walk with him and let Him be those things to you and He will show you how to walk in fullness of life in Him.

Jesus says, "Come unto me all you who labor and are heavy burdened and I will give you rest."

 

[VioletReigns]

Remember this Brother Bugeyes, Jesus wants you just like you are. Don't try to change anything about yourself! When we walk with Christ intimately, we will be changed, day by day, from glory to glory.

 

[MissCris]

I fell apart today.
Think I'll try sticking myself back together with Krazy Glue and duct tape.