Streams of Consciousness & Thoughts~~~

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Catching a few hours of doing nothing before I have to play another concert.

This weekend has been busy -

My friend and daughter #3's piano teacher put on a Halloween recital. Two of my own students played in it as well. I brought a few treats for the reception: a zucchini cake, some chocolate covered berries with crunchy things in them (we called them "brain bits because they looked like it and hey, Halloween!). Oh, and I made a cheese ball that I molded into the shape of a rat - again....Halloween. I was okay with it until I saw people digging into the half-eaten rat with their crackers, then I got disgusted...which I guess means that it was a pretty convincing rat. I dunno if I will make one of those again...

Orchestra concert last night. A local community college has no french horns in their orchestra, so I get a little bit o $$ to play with them. Then this morning, I had to play in all three services. Tonight is another concert with a different group. It's been busy, yes, but fun.

My friend's husband...well, he's also my friend...puts the recital performances on you tube for those willing. This latest performance is not up yet, but here is daughter #2's performance of a Milhaud piece from last year...around the time I joined CC.

[video=youtube;IP9byNiPohI]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IP9byNiPohI[/video]
 
I just realized I've been on CC for 2 years now.

It's amazing how much can happen in such a short span of time, those 2 years.
 
A couple things

-An autoclave
-A mallet
-Sleep
-A river with a willow tree hovering over it in the cool of day.

-Jesus,
The bible
-Wisdom.
-Peace
-Resting Place
-Lotion for dry hands.

-Snow, Christmas music, punching bag.
-A pillow to wail into.
& A quail.

~Turtles for fun.
~Moustache for sophistication.
~Time machine.
~Armageddon
~An ending being better than its beginning.

-Wishing life away
Hating the new beginning and never missing them.

Running away from an opportunity.
From many opportunities.

Commitment issues.
Powerpuff girls.
Baristas.

Petri Dish.
Winged dinosaur.
Terrible twos
Birthhday cakes. and afros.
 
It has happened. The weather has gotten cold enough that I finally, for the first time since spring, fired up the space heater.

There's something about the first time you turn it on. The smell of dust burning off the heat coils... aaaaaah winter is coming.
 
Lynx said:
There's something about the first time you turn it on. The smell of dust burning off the heat coils... aaaaaah winter is coming.
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I love that smell!! I have a vivid memory of being in the playroom as a kid with my siblings while the adults were upstairs playing card games, we were watching a movie and the best came on and there was that smell, so sometimes it reminds me of that time and makes me feel like a kid again.

Funny what the mind clings to in memories.
 
Your daughter looks like you, Steve. ^_^

(Well, younger and prettier, anyways.)

Wouldn't expect a younger pianist to take to Milhaud so well; usually you don't see young musicians developing an ear for dissonance until college or so.
 
Shouryu said:
Your daughter looks like you, Steve. ^_^

(Well, younger and prettier, anyways.)

Wouldn't expect a younger pianist to take to Milhaud so well; usually you don't see young musicians developing an ear for dissonance until college or so.
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ah, well....she didn't really like that piece. And, she has given up piano. Art is her passion right now, which she is really amazing at. I hope she returns to the piano some day.
 
I don't care for that particular piece either, but she did very well with it. I hope she does return to piano. Piano will always be one of life's joys for me.
 
My cat has been able to have free roam of the house since Wednesday. Since then, he has discovered three things:

It's really fun to tease the dogs and get them all in an uproar.

Oooooh, fish tank!!!

Wait.... I have free roam of the house. That means, I can run faster than a torpedo - THROUGH THE WHOLE HOUSE! WEEEEEEEE!
 
lil_christian said:
My cat has been able to have free roam of the house since Wednesday. Since then, he has discovered three things:

It's really fun to tease the dogs and get them all in an uproar.

Oooooh, fish tank!!!

Wait.... I have free roam of the house. That means, I can run faster than a torpedo - THROUGH THE WHOLE HOUSE! WEEEEEEEE!
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raising a free-range cat seems so... you! ; p

how's mr. mocha getting along, in general and with the incorrigible titan?
 
gypsygirl said:

raising a free-range cat seems so... you! ; p

how's mr. mocha getting along, in general and with the incorrigible titan?
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bahahaha!

Mocha's getting along fairly well with the cat. He doesn't really try to chase after him. Though if the cat annoys him enough, he'll start barking and carrying on towards him. Which when that happens I'll remove the cat from the situation for just a little bit. Just till Mocha calms down, and then I let kitty go right back to runnin' 'round.
 
while i'm waiting for my final "monday report" to download, i thought i'd mention something:

one of the most difficult things i've ever had to learn to do is to give myself permission to be different than i had originally decided i wanted to become.

or to decide that it is OK to drop or even alter long held dreams.

after all, i am constantly changing, and i need to stop being surprised that my desires and plans, my intentions and hopes can certainly shift with them. or not.

as badly as i want to be true to myself and who i am--and love the notion, the value of that concept-- to be all that i could be, i can't help but wonder whether it's terribly close to the person who i was created to be.

i want to eager to welcome and adopt what should or could naturally shift along with the evolution within myself -- presumably growth and maturity.

i want to embrace change, and not allow my nostalgic connection to what is not yet create a stubbornness within me--as if i am reconciling that fact, shift without feeling like a sell-out, a chicken, or simply giving up is something that i have had to work to do.

sometimes i feel like i've lived my life like a unending bucket list. realizing that the drive to achieve something i wanted 10 years ago has waned isn't necessarily failure or surrender.

it's a reflection of the dreams of the person who i am learning, evolving and practicing to be.

i wonder if this might be what "dying to self" could possibly feel like. a person who is rising among the ashes of what was.
 
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gypsygirl said:
while i'm waiting for my final "monday report" to download, i thought i'd mention something:

one of the most difficult things i've ever had to learn to do is to give myself permission to be different than i had originally decided i wanted to become.

or to decide that it is OK to drop or even alter long held dreams.

after all, i am constantly changing, and i need to stop being surprised that my desires and plans, my intentions and hopes can certainly shift with them. or not.

as badly as i want to be true to myself and who i am--and love the notion, the value of that concept-- to be all that i could be, i can't help but wonder whether it's terribly close to the person who i was created to be.

i want to eager to welcome and adopt what should or could naturally shift along with the evolution within myself -- presumably growth and maturity.

i want to embrace change, and not allow my nostalgic connection to what is not yet create a stubbornness within me--as if i am reconciling that fact, shift without feeling like a sell-out, a chicken, or simply giving up is something that i have had to work to do.

sometimes i feel like i've lived my life like a unending bucket list. realizing that the drive to achieve something i wanted 10 years ago has waned isn't necessarily failure or surrender.

it's a reflection of the dreams of the person who i am learning, evolving and practicing to be.

i wonder if this might be what "dying to self" could possibly feel like. a person who is rising among the ashes of what was.
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First - can't tell if those are boots or not.

Second - I think I know how you feel. :/ If you're like me you'll eventually learn to accept it after giving what you truly felt was your best try. But you're not like me, so you'll probably pick yourself back up and get on with a fresh start.
 
In June my Husband and kids and myself are going to the Outer Banks in NC with his family. We're all renting a big house. It should be fun, but I'll be honest, I wish I was going out west again. The furthest south I've ever been is Pittsburgh, no kidding. I don't do heat, I don't like Alligators or bugs or humidity. I also like to go to the beach when it isn't hot and I can sit on the beach with not a lot of people and listen to the waves. I don't swim in the ocean I avoid swimming in lake Erie, if I can. My kids like the beach, and I will go in the water with them.

I know I sound like a curmudgeon, but I much prefer a forest to a beach. I like to hike. I like big rocks and mountains. The ocean is were the sharks live, I don't like invading their space. My Mother in law told me that we will be down the road from a nature preserve, which will be wonderful and I will have a nice time. I make the best of things. We also will stop in Washington DC on the way home since we will be passing through. That will be cool. Also spending time with family is great. I just pray there aren't any alligators, I will freak, I know it
 
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