I love all of you too. I know what it's like to want to die as well. My two boys kept me from trying, because I had an easy way. I have a whole arm that I cannot feel at all, I could have done it without having to feel the bite of the blade. I prayed for death with all sincerity not even knowing if I still wanted to believe in Him anymore, but He had to crush my pride, and I've always been one to learn the "hard way". I only share these thing to bring what little bit of glory I can to His name, and I feel the same thing in Blue's post and between all of you in your words to each other. What a Great God we all serve!!!