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arwen-undomiel
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Read a brief description of the movie 'If I Stay'. I have a feeling if I see it, I will choke on my tears. Watch trailer? Uhm no thanks. Pass.
I was sad today too.Pray for me. I'm too emotional and sad and stuff. It makes my head hurt. Feelings are stupid.
...Apparently I need more sleep. Lol.
(That wasn't a bitter comment, I swear,..I just kind of chuckled at the thought, lol)
People are insisting that I come chat with them or call... keep in contact how do I explain to them that I go to sleep every night praying that I do not have to wake up the next morning. How to I explain to them the amount of energy it takes for me to get out of bed, let alone force myself to have one small meal a day. How do I try to be normal for them? I am aware that some of my friends need me. I've always been the girl they went to when they were in trouble. Now I'm the one in trouble and I can't face them. I can't do what they are asking me to do. I have no idea what to do with myself anymore. I've given up on the idea of ever being happy.
ISIS may be stopped. But we cannot stop other splinter groups from forming. Or from new terrorist organizations to spring up. Unless we humans have a common enemy we will always fight each other.
Maybe the guy who made Independence Day watched too much Robotech.I thought you were talking "Independence Day"
Hey guys... I've been having conflict in my heart and mind and then something occurred in my family that also brought back a lot of painful emotional memories... My initial instinct was to draw near God and draw away from people... But now I see that it is not my own. God revealed these thoughts to me...
Ezekial 16:15 But you thought your fame and beauty were your own. So you gave yourself as a prostitute to every man who came along. Your beauty was theirs for the asking.
Yes. I know it's important to draw near to God when we are going thru difficult times... But what He spoke to me was... Raine, it wasn't you who brought you this far... It wasn't you who allowed relationships to develop... Everything that you are that is and of beauty is from me.
I try to run away... I try to hide... But in the end, everything I have that is beautiful is from The Lord, even the difficult relationships. It isn't up to me how to handle those relationships... It's up to Him. They have belonged to Him from the very beginning. So I will try my best to not worry and simply embrace them with joy as God has called me to do. I will try my best to stop running away from those relationships.
Thank you God. All this beauty I see within me is all from you.
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Don't live life worried about being judged. Live life like you have already been forgiven and rejoice in this because this is the truth. God wants us to live life in him where there is true freedom.With other Christians, I have to worry about doing the right thing, and being judged. With nonbelievers, I have to worry doing the right thing, and being judged by God. Either way, there is worry, and judgement.
With other Christians, I have to worry about doing the right thing, and being judged. With nonbelievers, I have to worry doing the right thing, and being judged by God. Either way, there is worry, and judgement.
Sigh. Shudder. Shiver of Repulsion.
Mild rant here, of which I've stated many times before.
There is a couple at my parents church--the man is a white male in his mid-60's at least, and the young woman he brings to church and holds hands with is an Asian girl probably in her mid-20's. At first I thought they were like me... the older man being the father and the young woman being his daughter, just like I am with my Dad...
But alas. They seem to have no qualms about holding back PDA's. Displays like these are why people think I'm my father's mistress and my Grandpa's girlfriend... and why 75-year-old men (two more in the last week, adding to countless others) constantly flood my dating profiles.
I realize different things work for different people--God bless them all. But for me, when men that much older approach me as a possible dating/sex partner, it just makes me feel like the victim of a pedophile.
It wouldn't bother me if couples like this didn't turn women like me into an entire stereotype.
With other Christians, I have to worry about doing the right thing, and being judged. With nonbelievers, I have to worry doing the right thing, and being judged by God. Either way, there is worry, and judgement.
i'm so tired.
With other Christians, I have to worry about doing the right thing, and being judged. With nonbelievers, I have to worry doing the right thing, and being judged by God. Either way, there is worry, and judgement.
I pray that God will renew your strength. In Jesus name. Amen.