Emmy, I hope you see this. I just thought of something. If you want to confess Jesus as your personal Savior and Lord, and say that you want to follow Him, I see no reason why you can't "be baptized" right now. It doesn't take the members of your local church saying that you're "allowed" to be baptized because you attended enough classes that they were offering (that still makes me mad that they did that to you). We're all witnesses here. Reading the book of Acts, chapter 8, verses 26-40, I see no reason why, here on your birthday, we can't declare you baptized in the name of Jesus, if you agree to the things I typed in the third sentence of my post. You can then do whatever water-type thing is feasible; dunking yourself in the bathtub, or even sprinkling yourself with water from the faucet, if that's all that would work for right now (going to a creek or swimming pool with a fellow believer and letting them gently lower you into the water for a second is great if that's feasible as well). It's up to you, but, again, reading that passage of scripture, if you want to ask Jesus to be your Savior and a part of your life and help you to follow Him, it suits me to do this and consider you baptized
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