Streams of Consciousness & Thoughts~~~

[AzureAfire]

So glad to see you Azura !!!

Thank you, Mama Fenner!!! It's good to be out of the freezer!!! XD

For awhile, it felt like my crazy circuits were messed up. Even though there were a lot of awesome threads, I couldn't think of anything fun and/or meaningful to write XD maybe i'm reading too many vexing posts in the Bible Discussion Forum??? OR maybe i shouldn't have ran across the field during that stormy night??? XD But kidding aside, i honestly don't understand why some of our CC members couldn't see the truth sometimes It gets pretty frustrating somewhat!!! But instead of getting negative, i've learned to pray for them instead. I was very much lost and clueless in the past myself. Papa GOD is the only reason i now understand so much.

Well, now that the "brain freeze" has passed, i happily return to my nutty niche!!!

 

[Fenner]

Thank you, Mama Fenner!!! It's good to be out of the freezer!!! XD

For awhile, it felt like my crazy circuits were messed up. Even though there were a lot of awesome threads, I couldn't think of anything fun and/or meaningful to write XD maybe i'm reading too many vexing posts in the Bible Discussion Forum??? OR maybe i shouldn't have ran across the field during that stormy night??? XD But kidding aside, i honestly don't understand why some of our CC members couldn't see the truth sometimes It gets pretty frustrating somewhat!!! But instead of getting negative, i've learned to pray for them instead. I was very much lost and clueless in the past myself. Papa GOD is the only reason i now understand so much.

Well, now that the "brain freeze" has passed, i happily return to my nutty niche!!!

You're so funny! I'm glad you're out of your funky mind freeze. You're back in time to see Descyples before Sears catalog modeling photo.

 

[MissCris]

It's so fun to wake up feeling like I got whacked in the head with a sledge hammer. That's what I get for trying to be responsible and go to bed early. This earns a
-yay.

 

[AzureAfire]

You're so funny! I'm glad you're out of your funky mind freeze. You're back in time to see Descyples before Sears catalog modeling photo.

Oh yes, indeed!!! I'm glad i didn't miss out on that one!!!

I still can't believe i'm in a relationship with a former male model XD and i bet Descyple still can't believe he's in a relationship with a castaway from Mars I got ejected from our ship when i didn't get the final "cosmic rose" on the Martian Bachelor. Apparently, i'm too "out there" and so they decided to send me out there​, into space!!! XD

 

[tourist]

Finally have wifi at our workplace, and so, now i can go back to my other job Liking posts on CC!!! (and putting some of my own crazy, of course).

It's nearing 5pm here, which i have begun to dread for the past few days because of the Doxycycline i'm taking (makes me feel SO NAUSEOUS Good thing it's a "once daily" dosage, and only for 2 more days!!!).

I'm lying on our bunkbed here at our base (i'm working as an ambulance doctor now, by the way), with tablet propped on my chest. My team of 3 EMTs (Emergency Medical Technicians) are watching a Filipino horror flick in the other room (i'm not in there now 'coz i already watched that movie, and i don't find it that scary. I LOVE scary movies, by the way XD). We're all just chilling while waiting for any emergency at our area.

I'm very grateful that the power outage earlier didn't last for more than 2 hours, and that i got to catch on sleep, and that we have no emergency calls so far (i love the challenge of working emergency cases, but i always, ALWAYS pray that we won't have any. Not because i'm lazy, but because seeing terribly sick and injured people - and occasionally, dead and dying people - makes me feel REALLY sad. I still dream of a world that no longer needs doctors). In a few hours, we'll be having dinner here (i work 24-hour shifts. And i LOVE food and the prospect of eating ).

Dearest Papa GOD is simply AWESOME i LOVE how HE is teaching me to submit my thoughts to HIM, and bringing me closer to HIM in prayer and reading HIS Word daily.


I hope and pray that everyone else is having a wonderful day, by our LORD's loving grace!!!

You are a very interesting person.

 

[Loveneverfails]

*sigh* Why my body decided to wake up after only 4 hours of sleep and refuse to go back to sleep is beyond me. -.-

 

[homwardbound]

My shmoe sensing abilities remain intact.

Last night, a guy I went to school with and had on my Facebook friends list but haven't spoken to in about 15 years started messaging me. I was nice enough, answered his questions about life since high school, asked about his kids and his job...but it was the way he was asking things that sent up red flags. It was like meeting a stranger in a chat room who makes small talk before asking what your bra size is or something.

Lo and behold, ten or so questions in, he started asking about my marital status, and making sure to let me know he's in the same town I am (which I knew...it's on his page).

I'm too old and too tired to play the game he seemed to want to play. So I just asked him outright why, after so many years, he was messaging me out of the blue.

"Because I saw you in my friends and thought you were cute."

...well, thanks. At that point, I figured out that he only added me in the first place because I showed up on "people you may know", and that he didn't remember me from school at all.

And then he said, "Well I'm divorced now, and you're gonna be, and I think we'd be good for each other."

I forced myself not to respond. I wouldn't have been very nice. A few minutes later, he wrote "Maybe I should come over and keep you company."

Aaaaand....deleted and blocked. *sigh*


I don't know if this kind of thing happens to a lot of women, or if I have a sign on my forehead that invites guys to try and use me, or if it's just...I don't even know. My mom had told me, a few months back, that when she divorced my dad, all the creeps started crawling out of the woodwork. I had rolled my eyes at her. But...that's what's happening now. I hate when she's right.

Once upon a time, I thought that guys finding me physically attractive was the most important thing...it was flattering and made me feel like I was worth noticing. If their attraction went so far as them wanting to sleep with me, it was like a bonus, like I must be reeeeally special for them to feel that way.

I was so insanely naive and insecure and desperate that I feel sick remembering. Ugh.

I hate that I had to learn the hard way about guys who will flatter you right into their bed. I hate that I didn't place more value on myself. I hate the road I chose to travel out of ignorance, vanity, and emptiness.

But...the fact that I did learn, that I know better and recognize what a guy is after before I invest any of my emotions...
I'm kind of proud of myself for that.

Separating emotions (loneliness) for reality, to not fall or get off the train that God has put you on for safety. You cried for peace in the midst of, why keep looking out at the world for it, when it is in reality with you in you and by your choice can live through you in peace while in the mess.
This is something I am still learning as well, and have learned as well. and now content, knowing God will never leave me nor forsake me, yet people will. So right on Sister, you are learning truth over error and standing yet the fight goes on in thought warfare,
2 Corinthians 10:4
(for the weapons of our warfare are not carnal, but mighty through God to the pulling down of strong holds

So thoughts, of flesh from the enemy start out tom take hold of us all, when as a child, and thus grow into us as wanting to be loved, and this I see gets in the way, when puberty sets in. And enhanced, encouraged over a lifetime to trap us in to bad feelings the derail us into the pit, and that many times becomes a cess pool that we try to crawl out of and only God can lift us up and out, and thus start to renew our minds to peace above ant and all troubles

 

[homwardbound]

CLOUDS!!!!!!!

Clouds, ones judgment, brings fear as in the day of Moses after they were delivered,God spoke from the cloud to the people and saw the thundering and lightening, after all those miracles that freed them, and they feared, God and only wanted to hear from Moses, whatever God told Moses to tell them, least they die.

When right then and there God was showing God to them as their Father, and his wrath against evil doers that take others for granted, using and abusing them. this is where the fear of a sovereign God can be turned into the Love of God and the cloud revealed what is behind it, and now see Jesus being taken up on the cloud, and ask what is behind it.
No more clouded judgment that is for sure. All the troubles here on earth are worth the show and tell from God afterwards to our best interest in having life forever

 

[homwardbound]

Aspartame should be illegal to use. It's so poisonous. Splenda is no better. Splenda has made my head foggy. Aspartame gives me mild to moderate headaches, among other weird things. High Fructose corn syrup gives me migraines if I'm not careful (might be my sugar spiking from it that causes it).

High fructose corn syrup, stays in the blood sugar and does not enact insulin, insulin that is normally triggered to bring down blood sugar is by passed with high fructose corn syrup. One of the major reasons I was so high in blood sugar, at 350 to 400 every morning, when I first found out. been off soda alaholics for 3 years now
And had to slowly crash down to where i am at now, weaned off soda, when was crashing would have one and feel better and then work down some more, amazing addictions we all get and have at some point in life here on earth and get messed up, fixed just to run into the next fools gold to bite into to get lost into again and again and again
Life's cycle as in Ecclesiastes, so much wisdom there.

 

[homwardbound]

Cancer is a brutal murderer that has taken millions upon millions of lives. If it were a person I'd kill it myself.

Cancer, what is it? Is it selfishness? forget what everyone else wants, I am the one that counts.
Evil is brought on from being selfish, and not having compassion for anyone else, and there are times it is time to pick up the jaw bone of an ass and use it also, and so see God's word as the double edged sword, dividing Soul and Spirit, waiting for the call then seeing the tares separated from the wheat, you being a partaker in this, with praise and thankfulness to Father whom is actually righteous in all things, no matter how they might appear

 

[homwardbound]

And we all get it (cancer) and have it from the first day of birth in the flesh
100% die one day, and that can't be improved upon, only God brings us back to life in Spirit and truth that could be today if we reckon our own self flesh dead with Christ at the cross, we might then see the resurrected risen Christ and see the new life in Spirit and truth as in John 4:23-24

 

[homwardbound]

But it does'nt kill everyone. I'm living proof of that. But I do agree with you, it is an awful disease.

Yet do we still have it?
when my Sister died, not from cancer persey, yet still passed away. In turmoil from this she was 18, I was 14, I asked God to raise her back, please I can't take this, I wanted it so bad and went on for years not letting go. Not facing this truth. Wanting so bad for her to not be gone.

until one day I heard okay Howard, I will bring her back for you, I see your hurt, just please realize this, she will still have to die one day still
Then I saw to be glad for the time I had with her, and trust God for why she is not here, for God has got mighty plans with her for her and for all the world by her doing her job there in heaven God is ultimately this awesome. and yet i still hurt over this, but no longer does it derail me. I read a book called "the shack" that was quite helpful to me, and I thank God for it

 

[homwardbound]

I'm so glad that you survived it. SO glad. You contribute so much to CC and no doubt the world around you offline.


I only had a month and 27 days with my mom after she found out that cancer had invaded her body. On July 14th it'll be the 2 month mark since she's been gone.

I am so glad you are surviving through this, all wounds take time to heal enough to deal with, did you enjoy the time you had, even though it was not long enough, do you feel her Spirit alive? for you do know she is and if not you will in time the proper time to all.

 

[hoss2576]

Cancer, what is it? Is it selfishness? forget what everyone else wants, I am the one that counts.
Evil is brought on from being selfish, and not having compassion for anyone else, and there are times it is time to pick up the jaw bone of an ass and use it also, and so see God's word as the double edged sword, dividing Soul and Spirit, waiting for the call then seeing the tares separated from the wheat, you being a partaker in this, with praise and thankfulness to Father whom is actually righteous in all things, no matter how they might appear

Not every statement requires a Jesus Juke, especially that one.

 

[homwardbound]

I use emoticons ALL the time, because I want to make sure I'm being clear, because you can't always hear someone's tone of voice within text, unless you know that person really well. Even then, it can be hard to decipher.

So maybe, just maybe sift all through your new heart, that God has given you and is your teacher to all truth that separates error from truth, like separating the weeds from the wheat, without the wheat being torn. Maybe? too many times thew weeds being pulled harm the wheat
[h=1]Hebrews 8:11Authorized (King James) Version (AKJV)[/h][SUP]11 [/SUP]and they shall not teach every man his neighbour, and every man his brother, saying, Know the Lord: for all shall know me, from the least to the greatest.

 

[homwardbound]

I think I'm a pretty good sport about things...but I have my limits for super annoying things. From time to time, I have the brains to just waaaaalk away...but then I feel like a jerk. Yay life.

Doubts just seem to me to just get in the way, yet when we learn truth over error there is no time for doubts is there?

 

[homwardbound]

Nothing wrong with walking away. While you feel bad for walking away you might feel worse if you hadn't if you'd reacted off of what you were feeling that cause you to walk away. Rather than feeling bad, be thankful you know your limits and can act positively with that knowledge, to prevent making things worse for yourself or others.

Now thank you ugly, that is wisdom from God through you to all, thank you no brag there just fact

 

[homwardbound]

Why does everything always remind me of a Simpsons reference

Watch or watched a lot of Simpsons?

 

[homwardbound]

I don't understand why some people are so combative all the time.

Maybe, it is a set way of thought, not to necessary battle, but to state what they see as truth, whether it be truth to anyone else or not, it is truth to them and when feel not heard here comes the battle?
You think, maybe truth with us all, and how to refrain from the battle is what most do not see, because we the people want and need to be heard and will battle until we are heard, feeling it.
Acceptance Sister is important part of nature, and is why we have so many different groups of people gathering together as if this is it for them and forget everyone else, I have back up here

Not seeing what God said here
[h=1]Luke 6:31-35Authorized (King James) Version (AKJV)[/h][SUP]31 [/SUP]And as ye would that men should do to you, do ye also to them likewise. [SUP]32 [/SUP]For if ye love them which love you, what thank have ye? for sinners also love those that love them. [SUP]33 [/SUP]And if ye do good to them which do good to you, what thank have ye? for sinners also do even the same. [SUP]34 [/SUP]And if ye lend to them of whom ye hope to receive, what thank have ye? for sinners also lend to sinners, to receive as much again. [SUP]35 [/SUP]But love ye your enemies, and do good, and lend, hoping for nothing again; and your reward shall be great, and ye shall be the children of the Highest: for he is kind unto the unthankful and to the evil.

And the above goes so much deeper than money, as in to, actually listen to others and take all to God to separate all error from truth and remain harmless as a dove, as being wise as a serpent so you do not get caught in the snares of others fighting others
Hope this helps as it is God that is your teacher not me or anyone else


[h=1]Hebrews 8:11Authorized (King James) Version (AKJV)[/h][SUP]11 [/SUP]and they shall not teach every man his neighbour, and every man his brother, saying, Know the Lord: for all shall know me, from the least to the greatest.

 

[homwardbound]

Who are you calling combative? You wanna go? HUH???

<3

In seriousness, it does stink to be around people who just like to stir things up and frustrate you. I would think that there are some internal issues within themselves that cause this, though some people just do like to create chaos for the heck of it.

That wisdom there Sister wow, thank you father for revealing this truth to you and all who are listening to you Father