Streams of Consciousness & Thoughts~~~

[MissCris]

I'm pretty sure it's five million degrees outside.

FIVE. MILLION.

I'm melting into a vaguely Cristen-shaped puddle. That's what I get for taking my kids to the park. And you know what they're doing?

Picking pieces of grass and examining them.

I can't figure out why Starbucks doesn't deliver.

Oh hey, another mommy!

 

[tourist]

The stuff on the plate is what's left of the garlic heads after I roasted them and ate the cloves out of them.






Rings are like capes, they're just a bad idea because they get caught on things at inopportune moments. If I ever get married, I would consider getting a ring tattooed on rather than making some poor guy spend a lot of money on an impractical piece of jewelry. You make those kind of comments to everyone though, I'm surprised no one has called you out for being the most determined flirt on CC .

How can you be kissing sweet eating garlic? Still waiting for the call. A ring on the ring finger is most practical piece of jewelry a woman will ever have. I will loan you one of my Sharpies and you can draw a ring. I will let you pick out the color.

 

[Tintin]

Piercing the darkness, beyond this present darkness, the oath, all by frank peretti, very enlighteningto me anyway

Oooh, great books, Homeward! I reckon The Oath is my favourite of Peretti's (and probably his best written) but The Darkness books are very enjoyable and really paved the way for supernatural thrillers.

 

[Tintin]

I like all of them. Also read 'Prophet'. Even Ted Dekker's books are good - Three, the Circle Trilogy and Obsessed.

Oh, yeah. Ted Dekker's books are pretty good reads. Some of his latter ones aren't so good but those you mentioned (and many others) are great!

 

[Tintin]

Gypsygirl, MissCris, and Catherder: thank you so much for your prayers and encouragement. This afternoon was very stressful but I tried my best to plow my way through it. When the evening came, things got better, though my mom did still put a bit of a damper on it, but none of that matters now.

I am officially a future Mrs.

Oh, wow! Love, that's absolutely brilliant news! Congratulations! I'm really happy for you. I pray that as you both prepare for marriage (woohoo!) that God directs your every path and that you draw closer to Christ each day. Bless you, sister!

 

[Tintin]

The stuff on the plate is what's left of the garlic heads after I roasted them and ate the cloves out of them.

I'm all for roasting garlic and eating the cloves, I get that but did you eat anything with the garlic? Or just the cloves by themselves?

 

[Grace-Like-Rain]

perhaps you could take some of your own advice and share a little about your trip?

and how did things work out with "driving the church van"???

oh, and i missed you! : D

I've missed you soooo much!! So glad to be home! We had a GREAT time at the youth conference. About 24 total hours of driving, 11 total hours of teaching/preaching time, multiple hours of praise, worship, games and small group devotions. What an amazing opportunity for spiritual growth in our teens as well as myself.

We had some fabulous teachers, including Dan DeWitt who has a book out on apologetics and worldview. He did some amazing Q&A with the students during his classes. Late nights, early early mornings, and very little sleep. Great food, great praise team, and I ended up having another adult with me to share the driving responsibilities which was a blessing.

Thanks for asking.

 

[persNickety]

I met a girl yesterday, it was fun.

Great news- details?

 

[CatHerder]

uh oh...kitchen fail!

I saw a recipe for a roasted onion side dish with a bunch of sinful Italian cheeses. I figured I'd get rid of this zucchini by roasting it along with. I cut it too thinly and it burnt. Gonna go with some pre-seasoned veggie thing now.

So down the disposal went the zucchini. At least I was successful in getting rid of it.

Guess I felt I should post my failures as well as my successes lest y'all think I'm too wonderful.

 

[lil_christian]

I realized how distant of a person I truly am. I love God and I love people, but don't you dare make me get too close to either of them. It's probably why I'm not all that affectionate. I desire closeness, yet I tremble with fear at the thought of it at the same time. It doesn't help that I've lost one of the people closest to me, yet even I pushed her away, even when she was dying - my mother.

When people ask me how I am, I'm not always honest. I don't dare let anyone get close to me. Which is probably why people don't get too close to me. If I can't share with them, why should they share with me? That's fair enough.

Sure, it's easier to share with people on the internet - they're not IN your actual lives (quite a shame since I've talked to so many amazing people on here). Even then, sometimes I can't bear to tell anyone how badly I've struggled. It's fairly safe to say I've been vulnerable maybe once or twice in my life. If I ever showed my heart I'd probably show too much and I'd probably overwhelm them.

Maybe I should go to counseling, maybe I shouldn't. Maybe I should just learn a way to trust God and people. God is infallible, yet I don't trust Him as much because Mom trusted God, yet she died. I know she's restored now. But I need her here. God doesn't need her up there. It's not like He's lonely.

I'll probably regret even thinking about posting this, but you know, right now I just don't care. I just hurt. A lot.

 

[Raine]

My world is crashing!!!

Why does Arlene and Tintin have the same avatar???!? I get easily mixed up.

 

[ww_21]

When you’re young, thunderstorms seem scary. Like the sky is angry at you. But now that I’m older, something about its roar soothes me; it’s comforting to know that even nature needs to scream sometimes.​

 

[MissCris]

I realized how distant of a person I truly am. I love God and I love people, but don't you dare make me get too close to either of them. It's probably why I'm not all that affectionate. I desire closeness, yet I tremble with fear at the thought of it at the same time. It doesn't help that I've lost one of the people closest to me, yet even I pushed her away, even when she was dying - my mother.

When people ask me how I am, I'm not always honest. I don't dare let anyone get close to me. Which is probably why people don't get too close to me. If I can't share with them, why should they share with me? That's fair enough.

Sure, it's easier to share with people on the internet - they're not IN your actual lives (quite a shame since I've talked to so many amazing people on here). Even then, sometimes I can't bear to tell anyone how badly I've struggled. It's fairly safe to say I've been vulnerable maybe once or twice in my life. If I ever showed my heart I'd probably show too much and I'd probably overwhelm them.

Maybe I should go to counseling, maybe I shouldn't. Maybe I should just learn a way to trust God and people. God is infallible, yet I don't trust Him as much because Mom trusted God, yet she died. I know she's restored now. But I need her here. God doesn't need her up there. It's not like He's lonely.

I'll probably regret even thinking about posting this, but you know, right now I just don't care. I just hurt. A lot.

This...is how you siphon off the pain and start to let people a little closer. *hugs* We love you, girly.

 

[rachelsedge]

It was great spending time with family these past few days. A few of my insecurities bubbled up during it...they usually do...but they are getting easier to deal with.

As a side note, my poor grandma does not know the meaning of discreet. Ever since my decision to move, my stomach has been acting up out of subconscious nervousness. Nothing sits well with it, no matter what I eat. While at her house, we were in the family room and I walked up to her at the table, leaned in, and quietly asked, "Do you have any Tums?" Her response, "Oh, I don't know.." then she yells across the room to grandpa, with everyone in there, "RONALD, DO WE HAVE ANY TUMS FOR RACHEL??"

Any chance of trying to keep my gurgling stomach as a private matter was now thrown out the window. I was embarrassed but it was also funny. My aunt could not stop laughing.

 

[Tintin]

My world is crashing!!!

Why does Arlene and Tintin have the same avatar???!? I get easily mixed up.

I changed mine almost three weeks ago when we got together. Sometimes I confuse myself!

 

[MissCris]

I...got asked to go out for coffee again.

BY A REALLY COOL GIRL.

She was all, "The way I see it is, you're awesome, and I'm awesome, so we should ditch our kids one morning and go be awesome together at (insert name of locally owned coffee place)."

And I was all, "I've been waiting my whole life for you!"

And we laughed, and our kids all started crying at the same time, and we're having coffee tomorrow morning.

 

[Loveneverfails]

Oh, wow! Love, that's absolutely brilliant news! Congratulations! I'm really happy for you. I pray that as you both prepare for marriage (woohoo!) that God directs your every path and that you draw closer to Christ each day. Bless you, sister!

Thank you!! I really appreciate that. That's our prayer as well. A marriage is nothing without Christ, so we'll need to rely on Him every single day. We are SO excited and blessed!

 

[Tintin]

Cristen, that's awesome! You're awesome! After you're done saving the world, please remember to write a book.

 

[lil_christian]

This...is how you siphon off the pain and start to let people a little closer. *hugs* We love you, girly.

*hugs* Love you too.

 

[CatHerder]

My world is crashing!!!

Why does Arlene and Tintin have the same avatar???!? I get easily mixed up.

I know, right?

Maybe they should just combine names too, like those celebrity couples (Bennifer, Branjelina). I vote for "Tinlene."