Streams of Consciousness & Thoughts~~~

[homwardbound]

There are these moments in life where you're put into a position to apologize. I often don't want to because of shame and how clear those emotions and images play out in my own mind. Disgusting my core. I often wish they knew without the use of words, how sorry I am for committing such foolish acts. This also applies to those who have wronged me. I want to forgive and forget, but seeing that ugly scar there reminds me how frail and weak I am. I'm quietly angry at you and myself because that moment etched itself into who I am. And when I get these flashes and emotions, it's like a boiling liquid being poured into my mouth. I just want to curl up and pretend it never happened. Pretend it doesn't hurt. But use these. I use these to try and better myself as a person. I try to at least.

To confess to our fellow neighbor and or family is the hardest feat to overcome and do. Especially when others don't have a clue to what we have done, us knowing in ourselves that rotten doings of ours.
Confession to what we have done in not loving our neighbor as ourselves is key to being free and settled as to trust God once freed/
I had this same on my mind and had it for years, my conscience haunting me. so I set out to go to all as many as could find them and apologize to them for what I had done.
And when I confessed to that last person was my Brother and told him the truth.
And in each and every person I stated directly, I am ready to pay penance, for my stupidity.
I will never forget my Brother saying He forgave me, and as he was saying this he also perceived in me and said I see this has made you free. I said whether you forgave me or not, I confessed and God knows my heart, yes I am free
You choose as God leads
Life is like peeling an onion, makes one cry,
keep peeling for the center is sweet, and freedom is in truth.

 

[homwardbound]

I feel in a strange mood tonight...I am completely out of sorts,and anything could happen.

I think I might have outbursts of demented writing tonight.

I don't want to be here.

And Jonah did not want to go to the Ninevites either?

 

[homwardbound]

Dear Lord,

Please protect me from my own craziness, and hold my hand when I play in traffic.
Please watch over my babies, and help me to teach them what Love really is.
Please guide my foot steps, and pick me up when I trip over my own feet.
Please be with the wonderful people I've met here, and bless their lives abundantly.
Please help me to recognize what an ice cream overdose feels like so I can avoid it in the future.
Please show me the way, Lord, because I never did learn to read a map.

In Jesus' name,
Amen

So as it is written, so shall it be done
Matthew 18:19 Again I say unto you, That if two of you shall agree on earth as touching any thing that they shall ask, it shall be done for them of my Father which is in heaven.

I agree with you, all for the glory of God's Love that no flesh can comprehend and is why we need you Lord daily in the Spirit to train us daily in the correct way to think, and that is trust you to do as Misscris's prayer states
For it is not to spend it on her own pleasures, therefore it is done in her as it is in you

For you by Christ are now:
Colossians 1:22 in the body of his flesh through death, to present you holy and unblameable and unreproveable in his sight:

And trust in that brings forth the new life that leads you in truth to all things that sets you free from stressing out. no longer worried, in fear over what happens next, staying aware of today as today is, listening with the two ears we all are given over the one mouth so we hear from God twice as much as we speak, and do as Christ heard and did here on the earth in 100% dependence on Father. This is for us all that believe here today as well, and is why Christ sent the same Holy Ghost to us that started at the day of Pentecost
And whenever we error, we are to thank God first and foremost for being past tense forgiven through Son, Then say please teach me as you just said, and Sister you will learn truth over error, through this trust that Christ has done what is said he has done

John 8:36
If the Son therefore shall make you free, ye shall be free indeed.

Believe and wait no matter how long it may seem to take, why?
Ephesians 6:12 For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places.

 

[homwardbound]

Thoughts are where the warfare is at and is why after belief we are to:
Romans 12:2 And be not conformed to this world: but be ye transformed by the renewing of your mind, that ye may prove what is that good, and acceptable, and perfect, will of God.
Ephesians 4:23 and be renewed in the spirit of your mind;

would that be seeing all from God the Father's point of view?

 

[homwardbound]

The drawbacks of having next to no close friends: I have two free movie tickets and have no one that I would like to see it with. Guess I'll be weird and go alone....

In the eye of the beholder are we really ever alone?

 

[DuchessAimee]

In public, she tells everyone how proud she is of me and how blessed she is to have me as a daughter. In private, it's like she carefully selects her every word in order to crush my spirit.

I miss my dad so much.

Honey, I know exactly how you feel. If you ever need to vent or talk, send me a PM. Things can get better, it's completely possible.

 

[DuchessAimee]

I want a blue icy and a new phone because this one is miss behaving. It types what it wants and makes phone calls on its own. Dumb Steve Jobs.

 

[TaylorTG]

@Homwardbound

In the eye of the beholder are we really ever alone?

Nay!
Amen, amen, I say to you: We are NEVER alone. No one on Earth are truly orphans. We all have other family above the stars.

I like banana cream pie.

I also like apples.
Who else likes apples?
Red or green?
Don't say blue.

 

[lil_christian]

No. Just....no.

 

[rachelsedge]

Not a great morning.

At 5, something in my room fell and scared me. My first reaction was to fling my covers up over my head (because that will protect me from anything). Then it took me a bit to get back to sleep.

Then, this morning we had freezing rain. Everything is slicked over. I drove carefully, but walking over to my building for work, I fell, all the way down, and now my ankle hurts. I think I rolled it. Bleh.

 

[rachelsedge]

Wow 603 Lil! I bet Rachel and MissCris are up there as well. I am curious to find out who has the most on this thread

I only have 221. Not as many as I thought!

 

[iTOREtheSKY]

only 360 posts (361 if you count this one)

 

[DuchessAimee]

I'm at 182. Not too bad…

 

[lil_christian]

I'm afraid that I won't be able to keep my dog anymore...he's acting aggressive towards me for no reason at all. And I don't get why. He just started doing this three days ago. Where he won't let me pet him at all for a while. Then in the evening he's fine. I don't get it. But if it's going to be like this, I can't keep him. I just can't.

 

[Pipp]

I'm making red velvet cupcakes and chocolate hazelnut cupcakes it smells very cupcakey in dis place

 

[rachelsedge]

I'm afraid that I won't be able to keep my dog anymore...he's acting aggressive towards me for no reason at all. And I don't get why. He just started doing this three days ago. Where he won't let me pet him at all for a while. Then in the evening he's fine. I don't get it. But if it's going to be like this, I can't keep him. I just can't.

Has anything changed? New people in the house, or out? New environment? Has he been to the vet in a while?

Sometimes dog behaviors change if their environment changes, or if they're sick.

Just some options to think about checking out before finding him a new home.

 

[arwen83]

I'm afraid that I won't be able to keep my dog anymore...he's acting aggressive towards me for no reason at all. And I don't get why. He just started doing this three days ago. Where he won't let me pet him at all for a while. Then in the evening he's fine. I don't get it. But if it's going to be like this, I can't keep him. I just can't.

There might be something physically wrong with him. Get him checked out before giving him away

 

[MissCris]

Baked cookies.
Managed to Hulk-smash an egg.
Made some chocolate chips fly out of the bowl.
Flipped a cookie through the air.

But they're totally delicious.

 

[lil_christian]

Has anything changed? New people in the house, or out? New environment? Has he been to the vet in a while?

Sometimes dog behaviors change if their environment changes, or if they're sick.

Just some options to think about checking out before finding him a new home.

No, nothing new at all. And he's too old to be given away, since he's 11. I'm afraid that we'd have to put him down...though I'm going to try taking him to the vet for testing first, before I take that action. That is a last resort.


I really don't want this to happen. I love my dog. He's my most favorite dog in the world.

 

[GreenNnice]

No, nothing new at all. And he's too old to be given away, since he's 11. I'm afraid that we'd have to put him down...though I'm going to try taking him to the vet for testing first, before I take that action. That is a last resort.


I really don't want this to happen. I love my dog. He's my most favorite dog in the world.

Hmmm, littleC, maybe, let your dog sleep on your bed with you a night, my dog sleeps right beside me nightly. Snuggles, too. I often wake up and she's right by my side.

The Lord leads. Pray about it. He will get your through, milady