yeah...same here..I remember as a little kid,like 5 praying to Jesus...grew up raised as a christian...but by the time I was 14-15 I could care less about it all & was on my way to the pits. By 18 I felt so depressed & void of anything good I really didn't care if I lived or died...lol then God used a non-believer to bring over a cd by Stryper,oddly enough & the lyrics totally hit home. I had known the truth about God...but not in my heart..it was all head knowledge. Something on that record just hit me,like "yeah...this is truth..I gotta stop living my life this way,for myself."