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Tintin
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Why is it that people can make comments about my height (6'5) every bleeding day, but if I call someone short, they'd probably have a cow at me? I love double-standards!
I'm getting pretty discouraged in terms of work. I like the job that I am doing now, it's meaningful, but I need more hours and higher pay. I don't know where God is leading me- not sure even if He is leading or if I am just wandering.
The job that I really want, that suits me, that I could see as God-given, I didn't get a call from. It is still posted on the website, so maybe they haven't call applicants yet? I am still looking around for jobs that come up. People have been praying for me (thank you), and I believe that God would put a job in my life that I could use my gifts for, but I am not sure why it hasn't happened yet. I am here. I am looking. Where do you want me, God?
Going into Avoidance Mode. Sometimes I tell people things that should be on a need-to-know basis. I am quite honest about myself, my feelings. Afterwards, I face-palm, and get mad at myself 'why why, did you tell them that?!' Cus apparently I have a compulsion that I must be authentic, or like the world would end, God forbid. I irritate myself often.
Time to go hide under a rock for a bit, until the girl I told (and the other girl that I realized overheard), somehow had erased it from their memory, and I can gain my dignity back. And we can all pretend I didn't say anything. Dignity increases with time right? Right?
I'm getting pretty discouraged in terms of work. I like the job that I am doing now, it's meaningful, but I need more hours and higher pay. I don't know where God is leading me- not sure even if He is leading or if I am just wandering.
The job that I really want, that suits me, that I could see as God-given, I didn't get a call from. It is still posted on the website, so maybe they haven't call applicants yet? I am still looking around for jobs that come up. People have been praying for me (thank you), and I believe that God would put a job in my life that I could use my gifts for, but I am not sure why it hasn't happened yet. I am here. I am looking. Where do you want me, God?
For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. 12Then you will call on me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. 13You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart. 14I will be found by you,” declares the Lord...."
What is it you want to talk about?I should just shut down. No one really cares what I have to say anyway. As long as I keep to myself and leave others alone I won't be a burden or a bother to anyone. It's not like they genuinely care. They have their own problems. I'm just going to have to choke down my own issues for the time being and hope for the best.
Good morning, Lil!What a wonderful morning. The birds are singing, I'm super tired, the dog is barking - wait, the dog is barking? Ugh...probably means he needs something.
I got into a discussion with a gentleman who's son has a deer breeding ranch. He began telling me how he genetically breeds monster bucks (white tail deer) and gave me a brochure... When I opened it up , I saw the prices of what it costs to shoot certain deer that score up to over 300 points .. (points are measured in their racks) my stomach turned as I looked at the prices $1200 up to over $20,0000.. And how sometimes men will kill three at the same time .. That I should go and check the place out .. Before I knew it my mouth opened, I shook my head trying to sort out what was just said to me. I looked at him in disbelief .. And said " you are seriously kidding me right? " He looked at me like "what?" I handed the brochure back to him and said " you mean to tell me, with that much money, people are killing deer? Instead of helping people survive in this life?" I mean this is a house for a widow , food in a child's mouth, shoes on their feet , clothes on their back .. I looked at Him befuddled and in total shock .. "an education".. I know my face spoke a thousand words .. and the sad thing is .. It didn't even register to him.. He laughed and said "well , he's making a tremendous amount of money" ...I just looked at him, "really".. I'm sure your proud of Him.. "oh you should meet him, he'd like you" he says ... I smiled politely seeing where it was going .. I handed him back His sons business card ..thinking "you have had five
Minutes of conversation with me, you don't know me at all"
With a reply of... "thanks , but I'm looking for a man who has the heart of Jesus, not money in His wallet"
he laughed again .. Said take the card , you might change your mind .. I looked at the card ..looked back at him.. "thanks but,no". nice to meet you ! I've got an errand to run...
I got in my car and wanted to hit my steering wheel... why Lord ? Why do people like "that" get the money?
when I dont have a penny and want to help kids so much ? Why is it backwards ? The ones with the money do " that" kind of stuff ?? Why?? when all I want to do is build a ranch for kids to help restore their life ?? WHY????
I just dont get it !!!!