Streams of Consciousness & Thoughts~~~

[Ugly]

i wonder if itorethesky will still come to the singles forum after he and Deborah are married.

 

[iTOREtheSKY]

I wonder is after I & Debbie are married,if those adoption papers we filed for Ugly will finally get approved?

 

[OceanGrl]

i wonder if itorethesky will still come to the singles forum after he and Deborah are married.

Probably will, you can only listen to Lost In Your Eyes for so long.

 

[Ugly]

I wonder is after I & Debbie are married,if those adoption papers we filed for Ugly will finally get approved?

I know you want me to call you daddy, but not gonna happen, bud.

Probably will, you can only listen to Lost In Your Eyes for so long.

For a normal person, yes. But there is no limit to how much Debbie Gibson that iTORE can listen to.

 

[Ugly]

OOoo.. didn't realize i was in the Streams thread 0.0 Sorry Arwen! *halo

 

[MissCris]

It's bewildering to realize I have any kind of effect on other people. I don't know why, really...other people have an effect on me, it makes sense that it would work the other way around.

But when does sense ever enter into my equations?

I can't even multiply decimals!

Actually, I just can't...math. Addition doesn't count. Now I'm just confusing myself, and today is too gorgeous to spend it worrying about how nonsensical arithmetic seems to my warped mind.

My son loves Yo Gabba Gabba. I hate it. I love him, though, so in a round-about way, I have to love the show....

No. Just, no.

To quote my son, it's "OUT-side time!"

 

[iTOREtheSKY]

Sitting here thinking how I will never get to retaliate against Ugly's slander towards me in this thread,then again so many other people have veered off course. I mean for pete's sake,look at zero...lord,that boy could care less what a thread is about,he just responds back at whatever the person above him last typed. It could be a grocery list,and he'd type "you forgot the eggs...ohhh I love a good omlette...range free of course,giggle."

 

[GreenNnice]

Funny, I used to listen to all kinds of pop music growing up, recorded oodles and oodles of songs on cassette tapes when I was 19 one summer. My cat, whom I had since I was 9, died two weeks prior to my coming home to mom for the summertime my freshman year out of college. Wasn't fair. There are a lot of things in my life that have gone on that weren't fair, I didn't think, but, looking back now, God's had a plan all along, and, what seemed unfair was just His way of moving me in a direction that was fairly obvious--looking back now---that I needed to go. The Lord leads. "...you follow Me." John 21:22

Now, I listen to Spirit 105.3 exclusively for music, if it's my choice. It's not that I don't like Madonna putting me on the 'Borderline,' or, Tiffany saying, 'I think we're alone now,' or the Heart sisters saying, 'alone' over and over in my head, or, Debbie Gibson saying, 'only in my dreams, it wasn't real as it seems, only in my dreams. Nah, only in....'


Funny, but, in 1997, I re-committed my life to Christ and nothing made much sense of the pop secular songs after that(actually, I found Spirit 105.3 in 1996 to be my choice of music ONLY, a year with God only going to church then after what'd been a dramatic tragedy in my life in 1995 where God got my attention) world, not saying there bad (a lot of them say things that are good in the lyrics) all, but there is so much of them that IS bad, subtly saying things that encourage pre-marital sex, beligerence to parents, independent thinking that is, unfortunately, independent of God, and, well, the list goes on and on and I could go on, 'my heart could go on' saying things about pop music that's not good, but it was good for me back in 1987 which was when I was put with it in my life by God to get through a tough time, the toughest for me, I LOVED my cat, slept by my head, slept above my head, slept in my arms, head-butted me when I stared at him, he was a great, long-haired black cat that God put in my life and it was not music to my ears when he died, for sure. But, God used music, pop secular music to get me through then, I guess, yeah, He did. He did. He knew. He knows everything. Scary thought ! But, yeah, what's inside you , He knows. You know ALL your inner thoughts, no one else does. Does anyone really tell ALL to their mate of their past life? Maybe. Probably not.


Anyway, I've listened to every song out there that was top 40, thanks to 1987 , the year Debbie brought out 'Only In My Dreams,' it truly IS amazing what music does to one's mind. It can be beautiful, but IF the music is NOT focusing on God in some stream then it's far less than beautiful. In fact, Scripture says, 'You cannot serve two masters. You wlll hate the one (good) and love the other (evil), or, vice versa. You, we, I can't have it both ways.

I admit, I've been a little tough on 'music' in past threads too but I start hearing talk of my past, of music, and, although it was good for me at the time, I admit, it kept me from coming to God for many years after that time, and, really, it wasn't just 1987, it was 1977, my family was heavy-going church involved and my sister, 9, and, I 11, were pretty both solid on God, but then came the VCR and movies, horror movies, like 'My Bloody Valentine, 'The Omen,' and, frankly, life changed, my God-serviing family that my dad was leader of was taken over by these movies ^^^^^^^^ and hmmm, mom took my friend and I to 'Porky's' when we were 13 and so why do I write all this. Because....

....my family fell apart when God became SECOND in it, and, music, too, was a part of that 'change' that was definitely not for the better, that ended in bitter seperation of my mom and dad when I was 15.....

Quite a 'steam,' eh :I Sad, indeed But, God is good, and, He used those things to move me in His direction, through time, a lot of time, and, although it was not really necessary, I have so much music in my mind of that time that I CAN use it now to bring others to Christ who THINK I don't understand their time. I do understand it, in fact, I was a campus DJ for our 'Alternative' music ,grunge station for 3 years. So, I've heard it all.....

AND, now that I have (heard it all), as He leads, I will exPEL it to the 'world.' Conviction is His !!! I pray that if you've read my stream of thought this morning that you zero in on YOUR life and what you are doing NOW and thinking of how it's affecting your waking moments, your walking with God, are you being naive about what's considered good in your life that is really evil, or, consciously so doing, even worse, God says IF we are 'lukewarm' He will spit us out (Revelation 3).

So, think about the Christ who came into your life when you accepted Him as your personal saviour and Saviour. What happened ! Did you just change cuz you knew you were then able to go to be with Him after you died and not rot in someplace that Rev. 19 speaks of called the 'Lake Of Fire?' What happened? Did you become convicted just to continue in your old ways? Or, did the meeting with Jesus lead you to read the bible more, find out about His Holy Spirit and what kind of mercy, grace, and, acceptance of His will and His ways for your life really is.

Arwen, you're being toooo hard on yourself, too, just go for it, aSK God to help you become a GREAT suicide intervention hotline talker and truly follow Him. God's done some amazing things with me, regarding work, to THROW me right into the midst of work that was contrary to my nature before I accepted him (re-committed) to Him in my life in 1996-97 . Amazing work ! What a mighty God we serve ! A girl who liked me, whom I was doing things with, told me once, in 1996, 'Ed, you're too hard on yourself.' THAT was some of the best advice I'd ever heard !!
Get out there, be convicted of His Love that He instilled in you to reach the world, however He asks you, might be preaching on a street corner, might be talking to people in the grocery store line, or, might be quietly, NOW, just doinig things with God, in a convicting fashion, getting down on your knees and praying to Him for His truth spoken to you in your life, to show you as you proMise you will go forth His way for your life and your way will be gone no more.

1 Thessalonians 1:5 (Paul speaking)

"...the Gospel did not come to you by word only .but also by power, and, by the Holy Spirit, and, by deep conviction..."

God bless you all, thanks for listening to my conscious thought, have great days, led by Him !

 

[Jullianna]

Feeling completely empty. Wondering if God has to force wrong ideas and feelings out of us so He can fill us with better things. Makes sense, but...still empty.

 

[homwardbound]

Feeling completely empty. Wondering if God has to force wrong ideas and feelings out of us so He can fill us with better things. Makes sense, but...still empty.

No Sister just seeking to renew your mind thoughts of
Galatians 6:8For he who sows to his flesh will of the flesh reap corruption, but he who sows to the Spirit will of the Spirit reap everlasting life.
most of us are trapped by the lies of the enemy, where we are taught to do good and God will bless so we go out and work very hard to do this, not even realizing waht we are doing we are by this method sowing (thinking) to our flesh for rewards.
Not seeing waht God has done by his Son Jesus at the cross
As long as anyone sows (thinks) to stop sin whether they want to stop it or not will continue in sin as I posted the verse above
Renewing our minds to to see from God's vantage point not ours or this worlds

 

[christiancollegegirl]

I need some sunshine a hug. This grey weather is starting to depress me.

 

[Ugly]

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[arwen83]

*boots ugly*

 

[lil_christian]

I need a nice, LOOONNNNNGGGG vacation

 

[lil_christian]

Trying to realize that even though I feel broken right now, God is there to heal me. One of my greatest struggles right now.

 

[Markum1972]

Not sure what to say about yesterday...
Went and saw the kids with her and talked with social services a bit. They asked who I was. Denise cracks me up. She still introduces me to EVERYONE as, "This is Mark, and he is a man of God." I am honored to be seen as a man that belongs to God.
The one social worker voiced her appreciation to me for being a supporter. I just smiled and said thank you for a lack of anything else to say. The foster parents seem really nice. Denise told them that she appreciated them and wanted to assure them that they could come and visit and that she would also come visit; that she knew that there would be lifelong bonds and attachments established. She cried and thanked them for taking good care of the kids while she is getting things straightened out.
Played with the kids for a bit and then it was time to go. Her and the kids both cried when it was time to go. The kids wailed not wanting her to leave. I held back my tears doing my best to stay strong for everyone even though I was so moved with compassion that I could have just broke out like a fountain.
We had lunch and then I brought her to my house and let her sleep in the guest room for awhile. She had only slept for an hour the night before. I then took her back to where she is staying.
She is such a mess. She has difficulty staying still for any amount of time. She talks fast and constantly. I can tell she is fighting to distract herself from the demons of addiction that are constantly calling to her. She claims that it is easier for her to resist and that she is at more peace when in my presence. I have literally sweated from the power of the Holy Spirit pouring out of me while she is around. In part it is because of her faith in Christ and God's ability to deliver and in part it is protection for me against the evil spirits that are fighting to keep her. I can literally smell the toxins being purged out of my flesh.
It feels like more than I can handle and my carnal man wants no part of any of it. My carnal man would say, "Look, I cannot help you. I have my own problems to deal with. Just pray and seek God."
But even though my flesh is weak, my spirit is ready.
So even though I know I am not able, I know that God is. He is greater who is in me, than I am of my own self. If God was able to give strength to Samson to carry off the city gates, than certainly He is able to give me the strength to carry out His will in this.
I came home more exhausted than had I been roofing for 14 hours straight. I got a call from someone I haven't talked to much. It was a man from the home churches in the area inviting me over for some fellowship with him and some others. I laughed inside thinking, "That is just like God to give us rest after being obedient to His will."

 

[arwen83]

Every time I watch much music (Canada's MTV -basically), I get so depressed. They use to play music and 'VJ's' weren't ditzy girls talking about how hunky so and so is. How I miss the old days. Canadian tv has followed American tv and culture simply because that's what makes money. It's terribly sad. This is why I don't watch tv

 

[Markum1972]

Someone else mentioned this thread being kind of therapeutic. Good thread, Arwen. It certainly is nice to have a place to just share things and know that are others are listening.

How cool is it that at the end of yesterday, I was starting to doubt a bit and wonder if God really wanted me mixed up in this. I kept asking, "Lord? Is this really what you want me doing right now?"

Then last night, while reading the book of Jonah together, my friend Jay mentioned Jesus spending His time with the sinners that were seeking Him. Prostitutes, tax collectors, etc...

Thank you Lord for using your servant to confirm the things that you have shown me and bring me comfort.

 

[Jullianna]

I've always found it interesting how some people are held to a higher standard than others. Someone can be a total jerk and get by with it because "that's just the way they are". Others can be kind, loving, prayerful people who occasionally have a bad day or two and people are shocked by that.

 

[iTOREtheSKY]

I really find my self getting more ticked off as the days go on & on.
I feel like I always have to be apologetic because I live in America.
Anyone who knows even a little about me in my daily life,knows I am not some big nutty red white & blue patriot. I've never been one of those people who thinks this country is perfect or has all the answers or thinks it should get involved in every other countries business.
As a christian I am told to forgive,think the best of others,be kind,patient,loving,etc...
Yet every time I turn around I hear this group of people or this country or this religion bashing America,and even more "unfairly" bashing all Americans.
I just happened to be born here. Does it mean I support everything that goes on here? NO!
The secular media & hollywood types would have me be "tolerant" to gays,lesbians,every other gender,art,religions,people groups,etc...but these types aren't tolerant of me,or even my faith.
Turn the other cheek!!!!!!
Did Jesus in his humanity ever just want to knock someone right out??? I know he never sinned,but he was all God & all man. If he was tempted as we are & has known all we suffered,then surely he must have had moments (other than the temple clearing of the vendors) where he felt so fed up with things.
I expect to have non-believers give me grief because I live in morbidly obese,oil hungry,gun obsessed,rain forest destroying,capitalistic,in God we trust america...
but when other "chrisitians" do it & say those things it kinda bothers me.
Where's the love,man?
Many christians from other countries are like that too...it's almost like some strange form of racism.
They'll be polite to your face,"oh God Bless you brother/sister",but then behind your back or even in casual conversation they'll slip in a little sarcastic jab about america,or those wacky americans & their McDonald's..such fatties,the lot of them!
I will say this...people seem to hate us because we're americans...and twice as much if yer' an american who loves Jesus,but who are the first people they come running to when their country needs money,or weapons,or protection,of food,or medical supplies,or fresh drinking water,or clothes????????????????????????????????????????????
Our men & woman can go get blown to smithereens for something they don't believe in,for people they'll never know,all because they are doing what our government asks them to do...not because they want to,because it's their job.
No love.
and worse...no love from chrisitans either.
I'm kinda just sick of it all.
sick of me.
sick of you.
sick of us.
I can only imagine how sick we make God's heart.
...and He still loves me.
loves you.
loves us.
I wonder if we'll ever get our act together?