Ha ha...it's just a bit of a running gag for me on this site (Because every time I post a cringeworthy meme or pun, I stray further and further from the light...). Heck, it's even on my About Me page...
Wait, hold on, I'm not supposed to be real. Please ignore what you just read...dang, I keep forgetting that fact...
lol not really,if cringeworthy memes or other such humor got someone away from God/Jesus then I would have been torn from him years right after being saved,you are still close to the light I'm sure considering how you can be so empathetic and compassionate towards others,don't discredit yourself so quickly,being gloomy,a bit down,or troubled is not something that has any change toward if you are closer or further from God/Jesus(the light),shoot plenty of Christians are like that,like me,I practically avoid the sunlight and even play demon slaying games yet,where do I end up eventually?
In bible discussion forum speaking for God/Jesus and even weeding out a few "Pretend Christians" and "false doctrine" people if I can still do so with God/Jesus backing me,you certainly can "shine your light" too,in fact if it wasn't for my horrible,miserable,sick,twisted,jacked up,depressing,brutal,dark,evil,sadistic, life before "accepting Jesus as saviour" I probably wouldn't be the steadfast,goofy,smart aleck,friendly,holy spirit guided,determined,pain in the neck I am today,whatever you go through in life can only make you a stronger worker for God/Jesus!