You can be whomever God has you to be right now! Not later, not when you get it together, for none of us have it put together fully. You are in this boat with us, and we will sink or swim together in Christ. But let me encourage you in this - we will not sink in Christ. In fact, we will share in His glory someday, even as this ship of life seems to be in a storm and the boat is falling apart. But we will never fall, for the Lord promises us this. Your life is now not your own, it is the Lord's and as you live in that understanding He will give you life and that life will be living and abundant full of prosperity.
Speak as He wishes in you, and be who you are in Him right now. We accept you wholeheartedly, with open arms and a patient and understanding heart. You mentioned you were sad, would you like to share why?
(by the way Earnest has a very interesting Avatar I think too - I laugh at the avatar but not at him, he is great...) LOL