Robo,
Thank you for your reflection. As Christians we know that Jesus is God and is love. You have run into the same quandary that many Protestant Christians eventually run into. What exactly does this scripture mean? We have many denominations with this animosity over certain beliefs. The core beliefs are there, absolutely. It can be frustrating with so many Christian denominations differing on things like baptism, do we baptize infants or not. Some do and some don't. We even have some who are ok with abortion! Thou shall not kill! How can there even be any disagreement there. What we have with so many denominations is a faith that people can find to fit their life and convenience, instead of faith that we conform our lives to even when it is inconvenient or difficult. You are on a spiritual journey for truth, because you believe God has given us objective truth, not relativism. Your answers lie within the Catholic Church. The Catholic Church is the "Church" Jesus founded and given authority to teach His message. We have the scriptures! We have the equipment, but what do we do with the equipment is the question. This is where the Church comes in. I know as a Protestant Christian one would not even consider the Catholic Church because of what we were taught, but were those teachings about the Catholic Church accurate? There is a lot of misrepresentation about the Catholic Church. Come with an open mind and do your research, read the early church fathers and if you approach it openly you will probably become Catholic.
I will leave you with this from the Didache section 14.
1. On the Lord's Day of the Lord come together, break bread and hold Eucharist, after confessing your transgressions that your offering may be pure;
2. But let none who has a quarrel with his fellow join in your meeting until they be reconciled, that your sacrifice be not defiled.
3. For this is that which was spoken by the Lord, "In every place and time offer me a pure sacrifice, for I am a great king," saith the Lord, "and my name is wonderful among the heathen.
Jesus' real presence in the Catholic Eucharist is what the Apostles and early Christians believed. It was not symbolic. Open your eyes to the Catholic Church and you will find the truth and consistency of God's word.
May God bless you brother!