Hello all,
I am incredibly new to Christianity, and have only recently began reading the bible. I began reading the gospel of Matthew, and I have encountered some troubling feelings when reading. I feel so truly awful for saying this, but I feel quite frightened reading the bible, and I was wondering if anyone had any advice they could send my way in regards to these feelings.
I can clearly see through his actions how truly Jesus loves us, how he heals all those with ailments purely out of the kindness of his heart, and how he died so that we may be forgiven, actively praying to the lord that those persecuting him may be forgiven. as noted before, I feel truly terrible for even having these feelings, but I feel like the language used in the bible seems very stern, and to the point, and I'm so truly so so sorry for saying this, but sometimes quite cold. I suppose I was under the impression that the bible would be 'gentler' for want of a better word. I feel so evil for even letting these thoughts enter my mind, but I feel that I must address them head on, in order to move forward in building my relationship with Jesus.
I am so terrified that I am writing such things, and it feels so sinful to even type these words out. I love Jesus with all my heart, but I was just wondering if anyone could help me by explaining the root of these feelings, and how to interpret this language in a way that could help me feel less afraid, and more positive when reading through the bible.
Thank you to all who respond, I can't thank you enough!
It’s wise to fear Gods power.
think of it as Jesus taught . We don’t want to look for God in the Old Testament until we find Jesus on the new. We want to know this stuff first and foremost
“For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life.”
John 3:16 KJV
My understanding should begin here that God loves everyone enough to lay down his only begotten don to save our souls from hell.
many would think “ why is God sending all these people to hell “
about the truth is he is trying to save us all from hell and we won’t listen to what he’s saying.
If a father has two children and raises then both really well teaches then the same things but then one ignores him the other listens the outcome will be different based on which bekieved and followed and which rejected and rebelled the good lessons from the living father
In the old testement it’s hard to see God for who he truly is like this isn’t how God is it’s an illusion
“And they that
found him gathering sticks ( on a sabbath ) brought him unto Moses and Aaron, and unto all the congregation. And
the LORD said unto Moses, The man shall be surely put to death: all the congregation shall stone him with stones without the camp.
And all the congregation brought him without the camp, and stoned him with stones, and he died; as the LORD commanded Moses.”
Numbers 15:33, 35-
this isn’t How God is to people we have to look at Jesus to see God for true
Not this this isnt love
“And the man that committeth adultery with another man's wife, even he that committeth adultery with his neighbour's wife,
the adulterer and the adulteress shall surely be put to death.”
Leviticus 20:10 KJV
But this is love
“And the scribes and Pharisees brought unto him
a woman taken in adultery; and when they had set her in the midst, they say unto him, Master, this woman was taken in adultery, in the very act.
Now Moses in the law commanded us, that such should be stoned: but what sayest thou?
When Jesus had lifted up himself, and saw none but the woman, he said unto her,
Woman, where are those thine accusers? hath no man condemned thee? She said, No man, Lord. And Jesus said unto her, Neither do I condemn thee: go, and sin no more.”
John 8:3-5, 10-11 KJV
You can see how one would offer no hope to a sinner but certain execution and death . But the other is an act of love towards the sinner an act of pardon according to the law . Mercy facing a death sentence the woman is guilty but she is loved by the lord more
if anyone wants to know Gods love we have to look at the gospel of Matthew mark Luke and John and focus on Jesus he’ll reveal true love to believers