you can keep up this false pretence all you like.
The very fact that you say if I don't want to be saved I don't have to be, is a clear utter denial, and disobedience.
Along with
@Shepherd who has joined the band wagon of posting blank ignorant responses.
If the lord wills it you will live. And you will do this and that.
He would not will you to say I can reject the lord if i like.
That is something satan would say.
Regrettably people live in denial all there lifes.
Scripture clearly says you can not be certain what tomorrow brings and you need the lord to will your steps.