That’s a good question. I don’t think one answer could apply to everyone. I would attest that when someone turns back to a life of the flesh, their heart hardens against God desire for righteousness. Perhaps they are not even aware that they are bringing on condemnation. Maybe they just stop caring and continue in their transgressions without fear.
21 For the upright will live in the land,
and the blameless will remain in it;
22 but the wicked will be cut off from the land,
and the unfaithful will be torn from it.
Proverbs 2:21-22
Can we then say all people who backslide have hearts hardened toward God? When God sent the second Adam to deliver the new covenant that would heal the separation between God and fallen humanity, knowing the Good News words that would lead the thirsty and the tired to find sustenance in those words, do we then think God would not foresee the world's temptations leading some of us off the path?
When before there was a chasm between our race, the human race, and the Godhead, now the new covenant has joined us together again as God's word, a written invitation to renew ourselves and our hearts and rather than remain born to sin as the rule of this world, become reborn to glory as is the irrevocable eternal grace filled gift of our Creator. And after generations of heart break and loss for a people mired in this world and yet seeking something better for themselves, and for which the Good News resonates its invitation to come and sup with the King and be nourished in glory.
Would after all that span of generations of loss God not know some would have doubts, be afraid, feel unworthy still, and leave the way? I would say, of course He would.
After all God planned and did to renew the relationship between our race and the Father, would God let us go as easily as that when we are His now? Or would He foresee it all and as a consequence deliver the parable of the Prodigal, so that we might glean understanding from that tale. That while we may feel we are the son or daughter of the most High, that we can leave the path and venture into the world and squander our lives away there, (the Bible prodigals inheritance). And yet, the warning in that parable is, eventually we burn out, we are broken, and shall find the world that welcomed our riches, casts us into the mire with the swine when we have nothing more to give of ourselves for its sustenance.
The world is carnal and material and wants satisfaction and to gorge itself on the lives of men. And when the man is nothing more than flesh and bone, with nothing left to feast upon, the world buries them in the mud and moves on.
But that one that drags themselves out of that mire, humbles themselves to their condition, and has the will and strength to return home finds themselves welcome with open arms. Even when they have nothing to their name.
When the angels glory at the redemption , Salvation of a new soul here on earth, imagine how they celebrate when the prodigal returns to the fold.
God did so much to insure whosoever believes shall be saved, and never cast out. Being He knows all things, would He give up on us, because we gave up on Him?
When God made His eternal promise of immortal life through His free irrevocable gift, are we to think His knowing all things would have done that, made us new creations , filled us with His Holy Spirit, if He would leave us because we left Him?
Even Jesus knew Judas would betray Him to his enemies in the temple. And still, Jesus told Judas to go and do what he must do.
All that God tells you about how He will never leave you and no one will take you from His hand when you are His, is bond. Is a sealed promise, a covenant between you and the greatest creative power in existence.
Maybe we feel unworthy of that much love, since who knows ourselves better than we and our Creator? And maybe that's why we think if we do the wrong thing we'll lose everything Jesus died to give us.
Let go and let God. And trust that when your Creator knew you *the impersonal you reference, as in all Christians*, were worth dying for, that you should trust that is true and relax in the security God guarantees with His word.
Blessings.
