Very Depressed Today

[Shoshie]

Wish you all could have known the old me. I used to be the encourager of everyone else! I feel hopeless now!
Feel sometimes like Jesus is angry with me and doesn't love me. Grief over losses. House infestation. Loss
of job. Alone most of the time. Physical illness!
Why cant I just feel the love of Jesus and my life not be so horrible!!!

 

[Deuteronomy]

Hello @Shoshie, I'm very sorry to hear about all of the difficulties that you are facing right now.

Praying for you!

~Deuteronomy (David)

 

[Suze]

Wish you all could have known the old me. I used to be the encourager of everyone else! I feel hopeless now!
Feel sometimes like Jesus is angry with me and doesn't love me. Grief over losses. House infestation. Loss
of job. Alone most of the time. Physical illness!
Why cant I just feel the love of Jesus and my life not be so horrible!!!

I'm so sorry Shoshie , it must b very overwhelming for u . Have u thought about writing down your thoughts and feelings ? Or , maybe make a list of all the things that r bothering u and then going through that list one by one , thinking about it and maybe trying to figure out what u can do to change that thing ? I'm sorry if that sounds simplistic , please forgive me , I'm a very practical person who always tried to solve problems in a practical way .
I have to totally honest , if I start to feel a bit overwhelmed or anxious , the first place I go is to the Bible . Even reading just a couple of chapters really soothes me , just to know that I am reading the Word of God Himself is a great comfort to me . Also prayer , honest talking to my Heavenly Father through Christ my Sinless High Priest in Heaven . Pour your heart out to Him , there is no greater therapy than that I do hope things improve for u very soon sending u a big hug .

 

[Deuteronomy]

Hello again @Shoshie, as far as "feeling" the love of Jesus goes, that can be tough sometimes, especially when we are going through a rough patch in our lives (like the one that you are going through right now). Also, trusting Him (e.g. Proverbs 3:5-6) at such times is never more difficult, but also, never more important, so, I hope that the following quote (from Pastor Chuck Swindoll) will prove to be helpful to you.

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"Two words will help you cope when you run low on hope, accept and trust".​

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It helps me to both remember all that He did for us, as well what He promised us (e.g. Romans 8:28, 32), and also, to wonder what He is up to in my life/how I will be made more like His Son as a result (when the rough patch has finally passed me by, that is .. e.g. Hebrews 12:7-11)

As pastor/theologian Charles Spurgeon once wrote,

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"I've learned to kiss the waves that throw me up against the Rock of Ages".​

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So, hang in there, knowing that the Lord both loves you and wants the very best for you, ALWAYS, even though it may not seem or feel like He does right now. In fact (if you can muster it), begin to look for things throughout your day, even the littlest of things, to rejoice in and thank Him for in the midst of all of this, including thanking Him for always doing what He knows is best for you (even though it may seem like the very opposite of that in the moment .. e.g. 1 Thessalonians 5:16-18).

God bless you!! (Numbers 6:24-26; 1 Thessalonians 5:23-24)

~Deuteronomy (David)
p.s. - here are a few more Christian quotes, and a Bible passage too, that I hope you will find encouraging and helpful).

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"Our vision is so limited that we can hardly imagine a love that does not show itself in protection from suffering.... The love of God did not protect His own Son.... He will not necessarily protect us - not from anything that it takes to make us like His Son." ~Missionary Elisabeth Elliot​

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"The secret is Christ in me, not me in a different set of circumstances" ~Missionary Elisabeth Elliot​

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"Instead of a river, God often gives us a brook, which may be running today by dried up tomorrow. Why? To teach us not to rest in our blessings, but in the Blesser Himself" ~Theologian/pastor Arthur W. Pink​

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[Deuteronomy]

Whoops, it's too late to edit my last post, but one of the quotes above should have read:

"Instead of a river, God often gives us a brook, which may be running today BUT dried up tomorrow. Why? To teach us not to rest in our blessings, but in the Blesser Himself" ~Theologian/pastor Arthur W. Pink

 

[Deuteronomy]

Or, better yet, I should have just posted it in this form from the get-go, rather than trying to type it from memory Sorry about that!

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[kqr_anointed]

Sending love and hugs and prayers,

 

[kqr_anointed]

do you have people nearby to reach you?

i wish i could help

 

[crmvet]

Psalm 18:28

 

[Shoshie]

Thanks to everyone who responded!!! All of you blessed me so much with the Scriptures, the quotes, and your genuine love and concern.
Ive struggled with insecurity issues for a long time and I think all the recent upsets and tragic circumstances brought things to the fore.
For example, my Mom and I were very close and I loved my stepdad dearly, but I had insecurity daddy issues with my bio father. When I go through these rough patches, I tend to not understand or be untrusting why God would allow all these things at once to come against me.
There is one thing I try to remind myself of, that if I encounter someone in the future who is hurting as I am, please dont let me ignore them or minimize it. Ive hadany people who lifted me up during this time but also others who hurt me.
Thanks and love to all of you!

 

[ZNP]

Wish you all could have known the old me. I used to be the encourager of everyone else! I feel hopeless now!
Feel sometimes like Jesus is angry with me and doesn't love me. Grief over losses. House infestation. Loss
of job. Alone most of the time. Physical illness!
Why cant I just feel the love of Jesus and my life not be so horrible!!!

(The house infestation is a sign that you might be under attack, same with loss of Job and Physical illness.)

Breaking the curses upon your life in Jesus Christ’s name. (part 1)
Vicki Goforth Parnell 1-10-24@1:51AM

Proverbs 26:2 As the bird by wandering, as the swallow by flying, so the curse causeless shall not come.

A curse does not come without a purpose or cause and that cause is meant for ill-intent when sent by an enemy. Curses are uttered, muttered, prayed by those in witchcraft and other occultic practices. When being purposefully sent, there will always be a demon attached to it to bring it to pass. Curses have long-lasting effects and can go from generation to generation. A curse that lights. That stays after sent gives satan, lucifer and all the kingdom of darkness legal ground to operate in. A curse can be issued by your words of negativity and doubt spoken upon your own life, situations, others and such like. Even the ones you love the most. This is another reason why we should guard out tongues and pray about everything in Jesus Christ’s name. A curse can come from God as a result of disobedience and the first one came from him. He was the first person to place a curse in the Holy Word of God in Genesis chapter 3 on Adam and Eve, on the ground, and then on the serpent. All disobedience is sin and invites curses from God that only He can remove. You can ask God to remove them in prayer through the power of Jesus Christ’s name. If there is a curse actively working in your life, then the cause may be from unrepented sin in your life. It can be placed upon you by your enemy or God. (Deuteronomy 28) Sin grants satan, lucifer, the kingdom of darkness legal access into your life no matter who send the curse. You can also come into agreement with a curse unknowingly such as an illness. Example: An enemy utters a curse of the sickness bronchitis. If at the first symptoms of this curse posing as an illness is not rejected in Jesus Christ’s name and you accept the sickness, you have just come into agreement with it giving the curse a place to legally land in your life. The enemy is not only clever but sneaky, deceitful, and sly. This is why it is so very important to pray about everything and discern the spirits in Jesus Christ’s name.
1. Unless a curse is broken it will be in operation in a person's life.
2. A curse is a spiritual problem. It can only be solved by prayer and repentance in Jesus Christ’s name.
3. Where sin remains, the curse remains.
4. There must be complete repentance for complete deliverance.
5. Demons enforce and propagate curses.
6. You find you always make the wrong decisions and failure follows.
7. Your heart will become polluted and unexplainable sorrow will begin.
8. Strange thoughts and desires will come into place; you go from one problem to the next.
9. There are unconscious, self-imposed curses. (Like speaking negative words about yourself or others without realizing it.) Proverbs 18:21 Death and life are in the power of the tongue: and they that love it shall eat the fruit thereof.
10. Touching items dedicated to satan, lucifer and such like which are considered unclean to God and can bring curses. Mental or physical illness can be a result of this action…. corruption of reproductive organs, chronic sickness, bad reputation, and oppression are all part of an accursed life.
• A curse is present when at the moment of a breakthrough to occur, it fails. Then this repeatedly occurs, and you make very little progress in life.
• Curses can cause you to not be able to overcome or master something leaving you constantly in a state of defeat.
• All curses come from the sin of disobedience in some form. A curse cannot stay if you are living in obedience to God.
• Curses cause chronic frustration and repetitive problems.
• Curses can be attached to possessions, people, even events or happenings. (like a wedding for example)
• Curses can pass from generation to generation and from parents to children.
• Curses can cause everything you touch to fail.
• Curses can cause repeated failure of ever day necessities like vehicles, electronics, appliances, and such like.
• When a person leaves their spouse and marries another, a curse is accrued. • Curses come when you treat others unfairly.
• Curses come through sexual immorality: adultery, fornication, sodomy, beastility, pedophilia and such like.
• Ill-gotten wealth will cause curses.
• Bribery or stealing wealth from the dead will invite a curse/s.
• Purchasing second-hand materials sometimes have curses attached, especially stolen items.
• Bringing false accusations (Bearing false witness) against an innocent person will cause you to be cursed.
• curses can be placed upon you from someone's ill-wish and speaking about you.
• Murdering someone including by witchcraft will cause a curse to come upon you. And such more not listed

 

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Breaking the curses upon your life in Jesus Christ’s name. (part 2)
Vicki Goforth Parnell 1-10-24@1:51AM

Prayer to break Curses and agreements that causes them:

Galatians 3:13 Christ hath redeemed us from the curse of the law, being made a curse for us: for it is written, Cursed is every one that hangeth on a tree:
Isaiah 54:17 No weapon that is formed against thee shall prosper; and every tongue that shall rise against thee in judgment thou shalt condemn. This is the heritage of the servants of the LORD, and their righteousness is of me, saith the LORD.

To remove a curse the first step is repentance. Even for such things as bitterness or unforgiveness because if have these sins in your heart for anyone including yourself, you have to let it go. You must forgive them and/or yourself. There’s no condemnation when Jesus Christ forgives you (Romans 8:1) Unforgiveness and bitterness will keep you in bondage to the kingdom of darkness and is an access point for the enemy to return.

Jesus Christ, I ask you to please forgive me of any known or unknown sins that I have committed. Wash me in your blood. I’m sorry. I know I am living under your covenant of grace, and I thank you for this. In your mighty name Jesus Christ, I now break all evil curses known or unknown and such like placed upon my family line including myself made by my ancestors all the way back to Adam and Eve on both sides of my family line and the agreements/covenants kingdom of darkness that brough such curses into my life and my family’s. I do this in all existence known to God because you, God exists everywhere and in all things. I ask you Jesus Christ to cover each contract, agreement, covenant, known or hidden and such like things with your blood making them null and void. I break every curse that’s been uttered against me in every form of communication known to Father God because he exists everywhere and know all things in the authority of your invoked name Jesus Christ. Even for those I might have caused upon my own self by illspoken words and doubt. I ask too Father God that you please remove any curse/s that you might have placed upon me because of disobedience to your Holy Word. I ask for blessings in place of any curses in Jesus Christ’s mighty name. I renounce every legal right the kingdom of darkness has to my life (and my family line) because I now abide under his blood covenant as I have accepted you Jesus Christ as my Lord and Savior. Father God, I close all doors and shut down all new opportunities from being formed in the mighty name of Jesus Christ asking him to use his Kingdom keys and keep all doors locked. I pray this be done according to your will in Heaven and be performed on Earth in every area of my life. I shut down all access the kingdom of darkness may try to gain into my life and family. My life belongs to you. I am your beloved child! Your word says that light should have no part with darkness. This is my official divorce notice to the lucifer, satan and the whole kingdom of darkness Wash me clean and anew each morning with your precious blood and let you grace, and mercy be ever in my life. I love you, my lovely Jesus, Father God and sweet Holy Spirit! I surrender every part of my life to you once again. Not my will, but thine own be done in all things in your precious holy name, I pray in your name Jesus Christ. In addition, I renounce all contracts known and unknown with any familiar spirits, evil soul ties, false religion, spirit spouses, reject all failures, poverty, defeat, family break-ups, bad reputations and such things from curses and I destroy all evil and polluted materials in my body, my home and such like in Jesus Christ’s name. Holy Spirit please reveal and direct me if there are any items I need to remove from my home, life, office, church, and such like in Jesús Christ name. ***I recommend you pray over your house and anoint it with oil but pray and let the sweet Holy Spirit lead you in all such things. **** Next, cast out the demons behind the curse, sending them bound into the pit, the abyss in Jesus Christ’s name.

Example: I command every demon/s attached to the curse/s to be bound and cast out of my life, home, and such like right now in Jesus Christ’s mighty name. I cast you bound into the abyss where you will not be reassigned but stay until your day of judgment in Jesus Christ’s name. If the curse was against your body in the form of an illness, you can cast out the demons from the curses the same way but then pray and ask Jesus Christ to release his healing into your life in his great name as Isaiah 53:5 and 1 Peter 2:24 tells us we can be healed.

 

[Edward429451]

When I go through these rough patches, I tend to not understand or be untrusting why God would allow all these things at once to come against me.

Maybe God is testing you? Or maybe it's a spiritual attack like was suggested.

So a born again child of God is seeking God's face. And you drew fire for it. The enemy knows you will be very dangerous to his kingdom if you overcome and succeed and continue to walk with God.

Everything crumbled at once you say? (I know the feeling!).

Well, Jesus said when you make your Lord, your Lord, then the world will turn against you. I think the Lord allows certain things to happen to us, (like He did in the book of Job). And the enemy brought the calamity upon Job, but God only allowed it under limited circumstances...in order to test you. To test your faith? Just like Job.

Then, right after Jesus had been Baptized by John, then what happened?

Then was Jesus led into the desert to fast for 40 days and be tested.

You don't have to worry. Just put it in Jesus hand. I've had times I was hit with a big problem that demands pretty much immediate attention! And I didn't have the wherewithal to accomplish it, and I knew it. And then I laughed! I said, Lord I don't know what you're doing but I trust you, so I will watch how this all turns out!

It was a test! Testing my reaction? My faith? Who did I turn to first when I needed help? And let me tell you Sister, it felt good to pass a test. The very next morning the problem was solved, and not by me!

Jesus gave us authority over every unclean spirit. If this is a spiritual attack, then the enemy is doing it, and the Lord promised that He won't put more on you than you bear. Speak those words. Pray them. STand up and speak to the infection in the name of Jesus. Say you must obey the Name of Jesus so get out and stay out in the name of Jesus.

My best advice is to treat the calamity in your life as an attack from evil spirits! So cast them out with the authority of the Name of our Lord, Jesus.

The last thing an evil spirit wants to run across, is a Spirit filled Christian so no wonder they're attacking you!
Just Trust God. Just Trust Jesus. and speak the words.

 

[tourist]

Wish you all could have known the old me. I used to be the encourager of everyone else! I feel hopeless now!
Feel sometimes like Jesus is angry with me and doesn't love me. Grief over losses. House infestation. Loss
of job. Alone most of the time. Physical illness!
Why cant I just feel the love of Jesus and my life not be so horrible!!!

Job probably felt the same way. I have been where you are now at and it is very draining. I will say a prayer for God to deliver you from the cloud of depression and ill feeling. God bless you brother.

 

[Shoshie]

I just posted a reply and none of it went through so here's 2nd try.
First, I definitely believe in generational curses but the Bible also speaks of showing mercy to those who love Him after the part about the curses to seceeding generations. I have by no means reached perfection and am probably harder on myself than most.
But those of you who mentioned Job, it has entered my mind several times about the Ash heap. Job, as the Bible depicts him, was a righteous man. I do not begin to suggest I am on the same level as him, but I do ask the Lord to forgive me when Ive done something wrong.
Months ago, after my Mom died, the enemy really came against me basically trying to get me to turn against God. I did participate in a sin of the heart but I have repented of my sin.
I, currently, see a Christian counselor and am in a Griefshare group ( a Christian based group for those who have lost soneone).
I was very close to my Mom and stepdad. I am a female and only child. When both died within 51/2 months of each other. It was a lot to bear. I went through and am still going through the various stages of grief.
Yes, one of them is anger. And, yes, at times I have felt myself angry at God but I have also said, but Lord I dont want to be
I think we see this in a variety of Bible characters. Not excusing just stating fact.
My first example of a father was not a very good one. Our fathers are our first significant male in our lives and often if our experience isn't good. We unwittingly project those feeling unto God. With me, it's been mostly insecurity about His love. Would He leave me? Was He out to get me?
Then with the grief, people are not always there for you. If they were, how could they know you were alone 24/7 and never respond to you? How could they know you had a birthday and make no gesture of kindness? I know people have their own families butcwe are supposed to be there for the mourning and suffering.
My prayer is, Lord dont ever let me be this way re: others. I would like the Lord to use me to help others!!! I also am called to teach His Word!!! But Im in a state right now with my head hanging down!!! I need to feel the Lord really loves me, won't leave me, and sees my pain!!!

 

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Spiritual Warfare in the book of Job (part 1)

The first thing we need to be very clear on is this: the attack on Job by Satan was allowed by God.

Job 1:8 And the Lord said unto Satan, Hast thou considered my servant Job, that there is none like him in the earth, a perfect and an upright man, one that feareth God, and escheweth evil? 9 Then Satan answered the Lord, and said, Doth Job fear God for nought? 10 Hast not thou made an hedge about him, and about his house, and about all that he hath on every side? thou hast blessed the work of his hands, and his substance is increased in the land. 11 But put forth thine hand now, and touch all that he hath, and he will curse thee to thy face. 12 And the Lord said unto Satan, Behold, all that he hath is in thy power; only upon himself put not forth thine hand. So Satan went forth from the presence of the Lord.

It seems everyone has a different interpretation on this book, so let's begin with a few indisputable facts. The first is that God allowed all the evil that befell Job to fall on him. Yes, it was Satan who was the instrument of attack, but he never could have touched Job if God had not allowed it. So whatever your interpretation is, it has to answer this question, why did God allow this?

So let's consider a similar modern example, the man who won a medal of honor depicted in the movie "Hacksaw Ridge". You could argue that he was a perfect and upright man, one that feareth God and escheweth evil. I don't think anyone would disagree with that. He wanted to be in the army but not carry a gun. He wanted to work as a medic and in his own words, as the whole world is tearing itself apart he wanted to help put a little of it back together. That is a high and noble goal. This would be like some skinny little kid saying he wanted to be the heavyweight champion of the world. So then what happened?

1. They tried to get a psychiatrist to declare him crazy and discharge him.

when that didn't work

2. They punished everyone in his platoon because of him, making them run 20 mile runs at night.

because of that

3. Members of the platoon beat him up.

when that didn't work they

4. Put him in prison for disobeying an order.

Now let's assume God allowed all this to happen to him during basic training. Why?

1. He needs to know the first attack of Satan will be to slander him and say he is crazy. People can dismiss the miraculous with this slander.

2. He was going to rescue 75 men at night after everyone else has fled, that is like going on a 20 mile hike in the night after a long day of training.

3. He was going to have to go through the most intense warfare he had ever seen and the only way to prepare him for that was to beat him a little.

4. He needed to learn to listen to the Lord's orders even if it was contrary to the Captain's orders. All the men were ordered off the ridge, but in his spirit he was bothered, he prayed for the Lord to tell him what to do and that was when he heard someone call for a medic.

He needed the assurance that he could disobey a direct order as long as he was obeying a direct order for the Lord Jesus. My point is that Paul said all things happen to us for good to those who love God and are called according to purpose. All the things that happened to Job were for good. He had a purpose, he wanted to help put things together when everyone is trying to kill themselves. God was going to honor that, but this man needed some basic training before he was thrown into the battlefield. Those four things that seemed unrighteous and unfair, that was God helping him to accomplish this purpose that he had set.

Again, if you are a skinny little kid and you want to be heavyweight champion of the world you are going to have to go through some intense training. This reminds me of Rocky Marciano, the greatest heavyweight of all time. Rocky learned that going through a 12 round fight is an incredible marathon. He trained harder than anyone else was willing to train so that he could go through the 12 round marathon by always bringing the relentless pressure for 12 rounds. He wasn't the most skilled. But you knew if you were going to fight him he would not go down. The fight would last for 12 rounds and he would be relentless. No other fighter had the stamina to do that and so Rocky was undefeated. There were other pro athletes who tried to train with Rocky but they always quit after 1 day. They realized his training was too much for them. But Rocky knew that training was the reason he was undefeated.

 

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Spiritual Warfare in the book of Job (part 2)

So Job is "perfect, upright, fears God and eschews evil". This means he wants to be a man of God. But what does that mean? What is the Biblical definition of a man of God?

James 5:16 Confess your faults one to another, and pray one for another, that ye may be healed. The effectual fervent prayer of a righteous man availeth much.

It means when they pray God answers. Suppose that is your purpose, your goal as a believer. I want to be a believer that when I pray God answers. I read a biography of a man of God, he was traveling by boat across the Atlantic. He was supposed to get to London on a certain day to speak at a church. However a fog descended and the ship dropped anchor. He asks the captain why they have stopped and he said they can't go until the fog lifts. He tells him to raise the anchors the fog will have lifted by the time he does. Then he gets on his knees and prays and sure enough God lifts the fog. I read another biography and this brother was running an orphanage. They had no food to feed the kids. So he called the staff together to pray. A knock comes at the door, it is a man who was delivering food to a store in town, but they were closed for the weekend. The food has to be refrigerated and would be bad by the time they open on Monday. So he asked around if there was anyone he could give the food to and the people in town pointed him to the orphanage.

• Loss of Wealth: Job's wealth, including his livestock (oxen, donkeys, sheep, camels) and servants, is taken from him.
  
  If you want to be a man of God it means you put your trust in Him for all things. For most of us, maybe for all of us, it is difficult to learn this lesson if you have a lot of money in a bank account and a comfortable life. There have been several times in my life when lack of money has been a great blessing to me because it forced me to pray to the Lord and see His miraculous provision.
  
• Loss of Children: All ten of Job's children die when a strong wind collapses the house where they were feasting.
  
  Your children are your future, your legacy. It is easy to look at life as though it were a relay race and your kids will finish your race for you. To lose your children is like being in a two minute warning in the game. There is no more time, it is down to the wire, no one is coming in for the second half, you must depend on God to get you through this.
  
  
• Physical Affliction: Job is afflicted with painful boils from head to toe.
  
  Paul had a physical affliction that forced him to require God's grace constantly. Each of these turns up the pressure on Job one notch at a time. Being broke requires desperate prayer, but not every minute of every day. Only when those events happen that you cannot pay for but must. I have had several experiences like that, but it wasn't every day. Losing your children is something that is with you everyday. You never forget it, but it isn't every minute. It is like losing an arm. You get used to it, you learn to live without the arm, but you never forget it. No day goes by where you forgot for a whole day that you lost your arm. But physical affliction? I remember this brother who had emphysema, that was moment by moment. He was afflicted with every breath. There is no way to learn to live with it. This is like drowning, you are doing all you can to keep from drowning but you know it isn't sustainable. There is a constant realization that if someone doesn't save me I am dead. It is like standing directly in front of a movie screen at the movie theater. It is all you can see in front of you.
  
  
  Wife's Counsel: His wife urges him to curse God and die.

Some of us can handle pain and affliction. But this is psychological. What she is saying is that his entire life was a waste, and he needs to quit. You see it all the time, some people quit, they throw in the towel. Other people don't quit. The Patriots were down 28-3 in the Superbowl halfway into the third period. Most people would quit, they didn't quit and they won. The Celtics were playing the Pistons in the playoffs, they had the ball, there was one second left in the game and the Pistons had the lead. Most teams would quit, the Celtics didn't quit and they won the game. Think about that man depicted in the movie "Hacksaw Ridge". He was told over and over and over again to quit. He would never have been able to save 75 men if he had been a quitter.

So then, do you want to be a man of God? Do you want to be someone who depends on God 24 hours a day and who refuses to quit? That is the real spiritual warfare. That is what it means to having done all to stand.

Ephesians 6:13 Wherefore take unto you the whole armour of God, that ye may be able to withstand in the evil day, and having done all, to stand.

 

[Edward429451]

Wish you all could have known the old me. I used to be the encourager of everyone else! I feel hopeless now!
Feel sometimes like Jesus is angry with me and doesn't love me. Grief over losses. House infestation. Loss
of job. Alone most of the time. Physical illness!
Why cant I just feel the love of Jesus and my life not be so horrible!!!

I think you must change your perspective on your sufferings. The reality for us is, the more you suffer on earth, the closer you are to the Lord. That's a big list you have of what you are going through. You have to remember that during these trying times for you, that your prayers to the Lord will have huge effect on your circumstances.

Regardless of if is is a malicious attack by the enemy (it is), or a test for you from the Lord where He is trying to teach you something. So no matter you may feel, do not stop praying. Keep you heart and mind in Heaven and on the Lord's Agenda. If you can do this by the graces of God you will come to the perspective of, to Love suffering!

Because it is for the Lord, it is His will for us to suffer a little while on earth, and Jesus wont ask you to do anything that He wont do Him self. He came to earth and it wasn't might that kept Him on that cross, He said He could call for 12 Legions of Angels! So it was love that kept Him on the cross to suffer in your stead that you may live. The joy within the promise, and after it's done here. So try not to over react in bad situations. You gave your life to Him, our Lord. So can he not give you a difficult job to go through to test train and see your reactions? When your heart and mind is on the agenda of Heaven you are in God's presence saying, not my will Lord, but your Will be done in my life. Right? So, stand down to Jesus in your own life. If some sort of crises or wrongness comes into your life...Why should it bother me? The Lord must be doing something! What is He trying to teach me?

Do you lnow what happened to me today?! It was horrible and nasty and then it got worse...blah blah blah so to speak. So what happened then?
I got angry at God...

Uh-Oh, remember back in the OT Moses and the Hebrews were in the desert for 40 years? At one point most the people were complaining very loud and giving Moses a hard time, when the should have been rejoicing to having been led out of Egypt. I don't remember offhand which time it was, complaints about we want more water, or we want to eat some meat instead of Manna stuff like that. You might say, they were angry at God?
Well it just so happens that one (or more) of those times it made the Lord angry and He made the earth to open up and swallow up these complainers....Whoa, so don't get angry at God, just understand that these things may be above you, but either you trust the Lord or you don't!

I wont put more on you than you can bear, so just believe that and remember that God tests people in different ways. But if your heart and mind is stayed upon the agenda of the Lord with His will to be done, then what's to be upset about? You could walk through the valley of the shadow of death (Earth) and not fear anything.

The Lord will guaranteed ask you to do things that you do not want to do. Who would want to experience that?! When our hearts & minds are stayed upon the Lord, the frustration sort of melts away.

He warned you a lot in scripture. You will have tribulations in the world, the world will turn against you, you may be draw extra fire from evil spirits for reading and praying so much. To try and tear down your faith.

When it happens, turn instantly to the Lord and be cheerful. Lord what are you doing now? !! I think He is trying to call our spirits up higher than where we are, with a better view of the small tribulations you had to endure on earth.

Read your Bible more. Do you have the bible book of Promises? (Great Book!) Pray more. If God is real, then demons are real. You have been given all authority over them. So treat the situation as evil spirits and Exercise your authority in Christ's name and make proclamations to the spirits who are behind your difficulties in Jesus name to cease and desist! Get out and I bound you in Jesus name to never return or send reinforcements in your place. Scripture says whatever you bind on earth is bound in heaven and vice versa.

If Jesus can calm the waves and the wind of the storm with a word, then maybe you can too, in Jesus name! I bet you can talk your infestation away if you keep at it!