Hello again. Thank you for reading my response. I. am extremely familiar with Bipolar Disorder as a professional and because it runs in my family. It is a difficult road and many people go undiagnosed and even end up addicted to drugs, homeless or incarcerated. I know that the side effects of the medications can be intolerable so people may choose to not take medication. Understand that this illness is very likely genetic and don't blame yourself. It sounds like you are gettting good treatment which is praiseworthy.
Some people will tell you that if you pray hard enough you will be healed. I cannot say if that is true or not. God heals who God wants to heal and in His timing. But surrounding yourself with other believers who won't judge you and will pray for you is important. Again, this is a challenge because some church goers are not saved. Jesus says to "pray as though it has already beeb given to you". So continue to seek God's love and care. May The Lord grant you peace and a solution to the challenges you are facing..