I know that I have alot of trouble rejoicing in myself, and have misery inside me. But I also know that I call out to God with hapiness when my hope overflows, and I passively address him as dad as I pray.
I don't know what to make of it. On one hand hand, I accuse myself of all sorts of evil and unworthiness, yet I always cleave to God for healing. The plagues of my heart are always before my eyes, yet there is a clean and holy rest that I perceive and long for.
I know that God does not frsake his promises, it's me who forsakes myself, but the light of accepting the everlasting salvation is something I have a really hard time attaining to.
Thank you, I know what this is and has been in me too! not that I got it now, I do not! Yet God does got/get it, in Son as risen for you to be new in God's love and mercy for you too. That you know and have been told.
Having troubles perceiving what is done, trying to do what is done by Son for you personally first.
that is what under Law, being under to do it is:
That is what religion teaches to people (A do it yourself program) or else you not in. there the people get caught under better or else attitudes, really wanting to do it right and can't. Then give up or not!
Romans 7 explains this truth, and it can take a long time to sort this out.
To see the fight of flesh and blood fighting the Spirit of God. And in truth
It is not our flesh and blood, it is the evil spirits, that have attached to the flesh and blood, it is not of God using our old man flesh to get you in and upset under Law, it is evil period, God id the only one that can do it perfect for you, it is God through Son that did it for you and all the world, on the cross in the resurrection for you to see it and learn new from God Father himself, not me or anyone else. 1 John 2:1-27
You, I see are trying and not doing it, yet still want to, are you not? Admit that to God personally, not me please. Then see God's love for you and how God will never ever leave you or forsake you as you have been doing to yourself, and seeing others as well, doing that also
Talk about, being deceived, God just loves us all 1 John 2:1-27, Eph 1:6-7, 13, Phil 1:6 yet read the entire context of each Epistle to get the truth of God's love for you too, thank you
Now whether or not those things you hate leave or not, they will, over time you not giving up on God, yet can and for me does, has taken awhile, God does not leave right away, or anyone at all, as you have seen others do that, and is has gotten you in depression, why?
Because, being under Law leaves guilt or pride in people, period!
I uphold Law and glory in Law now, no longer under it, yet it has been a long walk off a short pier daily. Psalm 1:1-4 to see it, not ever giving up belief to God does sincerely love us all
Read, Job and see Job not ever deny God in all those troubles. God sees us all as a Job
Thanks as you grow Hebrews 5:12-6:3 and beyond