God works from purpose to purpose, if we wish to grow in Him and in an area He will take us to the path we need to grow in that area, i showed you a path i had success with in area it sounded like you wishes to grow in.
best wishes
Yeah no hard feelings, I have thrown my question out for others to help me with. We all have our own reasons for what we do and say so I respect your right to withhold whatever facts for whatever reasons and I wish you well
On your path. I hope equally you respect
My right to continue the persuit of trying and testing and exploring to find truth the way I am convicted to.
God bless you and take care