I am a 15 year old atheist and I am also gay.... I have had multiple sexual relations with girls and I do not believe in god. I want to change I want to be saved...but I cannot get rid of the homosexuality as much as I try and my parents are atheist, too. They will not let me go to church. Help Please!
This is a teen forum, so i was reluctant to post, and I very rarely do this, but I see several other older adults have offered help and support. I've never had kids, and wasn't close to my nieces growing up, but, am closer now. Your cry for help hit me the other day when i saw it on the main page. So, I'll put on my "parent hat," because I seldom ever have an opportunity.
Don't panic about your issues-- you're only 15. Just relax and enjoy life, and save the stress for later. Just try not to make any decisions about yourself during the next 3 years. It's a difficult time for sorting out identity. You are loved, accepted and forgiven by God the way you are. You are already doing all that God expects of you-- You are acknowledging something you feel is unhealthy and admitting that you are having difficulty controlling it, and asking for help. This is evidence of God's Spirit speaking within you as a child of God, and that you are called to be a child of God. It may be difficult to understand at your age, but there is a difference between "conviction," and "condemnation," or "guilt." Conviction comes from the Holy Spirit and motivates us to change. This is clearly what is happening here. Rome wasn't built in a day! Jesus said we are called to be "living stones," of God's temple. You don't have to go to church to be in church. Just keep seeking God, day by day, not trying to earn God's acceptance. Life is like a marathon sometimes, not a sprint! Just steadily try to make decisions that move towards a healthy relationship with God and others.
God is about love, and mercy; Jesus is your friend, not your judge--
Be kind to yourself and love and forgive yourself too; That age is such a critical time--and stressful; don't add to the stress by judging yourself.
One example is if you pick a roommate someday, pick someone that is a strong Christian, and is not struggling with the same issues-- and each day, you can decide who you want to spend time with.
Maybe over time, check out the book, "The Bondage Breaker," by Dr. Neil Anderson. He talks about overcoming difficult challenges in life. Just focus on loving and obeying your parents, and one day, your honesty and Christian love will inspire them--
I'm sorry for your suffering. I clearly remember being your age, and it was one of the most difficult times in my life-- but, your decisions are important-- so don't rush into stuff...
This is not an adult forum, so i can't reply--
People are praying for you here--