I tend to think a lot, far too much one might say. I can't say it is all due to anxiety's or worry, though that is a part of it at times
Do any of you have a self dialogue which wants the best for you but expresses it in all the worst ways?
Like I want to be like Christ, I try, very hard. I burn myself out expending myself for others, especially in the body of Christ. I'm always making and effort to be here for those who need a different perspective. And I can acknowledge that these things are good, but still I find so much wickedness within myself and my heart. I act against it often, but I'm still left here on earth suffering. I still wouldn't have it any other way. Its better to be miserable doing the right things, than happy doing the wrong.
I can't say I tell myself I'm wicked in words, though in ways were all evil in our actions and desires at times. I feel this and get so upset. I do not want to hurt those around me, myself, or give Christ a bad name
And all though Grace exist, I lack a good comprehension of it, despite the times I show it to others. Often I've found that It has not been shown to me, I do not blame people for this, I know all mean well, as do I when I act harshly as well.
How can we get to see God and know who he is when our internal framework of ideas is completely off?
I'm in therapy, specifically from a pastor. This helps some, but not completely.
For those who came from a broken home, like mine. Lets say your dad was often gone, or there was physical/emotional abuse at times in the house, or that your parents were drug addicted and too self compromised to actually raise you. How long did it take you to unlearn all of the lies that childhood conditioning taught you? How did you gain the ability to see God despite these things.
I have compassion for my parents and I forgive them both, I love them dearly. But I struggle to see God for who I know he is, instead i'm still almost living in the past. And this extends far past them and moves also into school experiences and past relational conflict. I believe all of these lies I know rationally aren't true. But they still keep me down.
How have you guys went from surviving to thriving?
What did your story look like?
How has God set you free?
Do any of you have a self dialogue which wants the best for you but expresses it in all the worst ways?
Like I want to be like Christ, I try, very hard. I burn myself out expending myself for others, especially in the body of Christ. I'm always making and effort to be here for those who need a different perspective. And I can acknowledge that these things are good, but still I find so much wickedness within myself and my heart. I act against it often, but I'm still left here on earth suffering. I still wouldn't have it any other way. Its better to be miserable doing the right things, than happy doing the wrong.
I can't say I tell myself I'm wicked in words, though in ways were all evil in our actions and desires at times. I feel this and get so upset. I do not want to hurt those around me, myself, or give Christ a bad name
And all though Grace exist, I lack a good comprehension of it, despite the times I show it to others. Often I've found that It has not been shown to me, I do not blame people for this, I know all mean well, as do I when I act harshly as well.
How can we get to see God and know who he is when our internal framework of ideas is completely off?
I'm in therapy, specifically from a pastor. This helps some, but not completely.
For those who came from a broken home, like mine. Lets say your dad was often gone, or there was physical/emotional abuse at times in the house, or that your parents were drug addicted and too self compromised to actually raise you. How long did it take you to unlearn all of the lies that childhood conditioning taught you? How did you gain the ability to see God despite these things.
I have compassion for my parents and I forgive them both, I love them dearly. But I struggle to see God for who I know he is, instead i'm still almost living in the past. And this extends far past them and moves also into school experiences and past relational conflict. I believe all of these lies I know rationally aren't true. But they still keep me down.
How have you guys went from surviving to thriving?
What did your story look like?
How has God set you free?
she has a carer but none of the close family will keep an eye on her except me , her sister lives next door but keeps away as much as possible , read into that whatever u will . I have forgiven my mum as I know she can't b anything other than what she is . U have to remember that whatever u do for others , u r not doing it for them , u r doing it for Jesus , that's how I c it . I'm doing it because he wants me to and he is full of love and compassion for others even when I am not , so , I do it because he asks me to and therefore if I'm doing it for him then it's a pleasure for me to do it . I'm helping my mum because it's what Jesus has asked me to do and , I love him even if I don't love her , I love him so I will gladly do what he asks of me . That's how I get through it , Jesus is the reason I'm always as nice as I can b to whoever I come into contact with . There is no good in me except what he puts there and I have to show his goodness to the world by being who and what he wants me to b . It took me a long time to realise this , faith isn't a switch that gets suddenly turned on , it's a big fluffy cloud in the distance , it slowly gets closer and bigger and eventually u r right in the thick of it and it surrounds u and protects u and takes u elsewhere , to a new perspective . U will get there too , at your own pace and in God's good timing , b patient and look to Jesus always as your perfect example and your patient guide .
