It’s locked for a reason stop knocking
Whats beyond these doors is bigger than the fear of getting close
It’s a shadow that devours
And takes what you “love” the most
Re-reading practically all of my books rather than making the effort to socialize through quarantine... because this is the bottom I’ve somhow hit upon landing. Rock bottom is quite soft whilst being pillowed with delusions, daydreams and wants 💩
Inner me they ran from you
Inner me they hate
Claim to love you as a coverup
for all the love their umpiring ate
Enemy they claim you
Enemy they want
Deep in the story is darkness
But they use the brightest font
My anxiety I so bad today I feel like I’m going to puke I feel guilty and helpless I feel like none of my friends really like me and I can’t even talk to them about things because I don’t want to annoy them and because I’m supposed to be the reliable one...I’m not supposed to cry, at times like these I try so hard to hold onto God but yet I still feel helpless
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