Please help me Dear Heavenly Father .

That is such a good prayer. Thank you for that. The challenges of this world are difficult and many. I've recently had a challenge of not realizing that I wasn't sharing enough of my past with someone I care deeply for. She asked personal questions and when the time was right I told this person everything about my past dating life before and after I was born again. And before coming to Christ, it wasn't good. It hurt her, but we got past it. What I didn't share with her, was something that happened after salvation just a couple of years ago actually. Mind you, I haven't dated in 8 years. And before that it had been over 10 years. So dating as a new creation does seem very foreign to me. And still now.

I met a lady that wasn't a Christian online a couple of years ago. I tried sharing the gospel, and she would listen but would not believe. So through these continued attempts we spoke more. Well at that time my mother was suffering through stage 4 cancer and needed more help like cooking. I asked for a couple of authentic recipes from here country. We developed a friendship that was turning friendlier, but not loving. As we made a few comments towards each other that were starting to go in the direction of "more than friends", I thought to ask if she was married. Not to mention she's not Christian so I'm already not thinking this will turn into much.
It turns out she was married. I wasn't expecting that answer, and I even kept talking to her for a few days afterwards. But the conviction was too strong and I ended the flirting immediately. I still tried to speak to her about Jesus, but she was clear that she was not interested. So I cut off all communication at that moment.

I didn't consider this a loving relationship or even dating because it was in some what of a grey area for so short a period of time before she told me she was married, so I didn't bring it up to the person that asked about my previous dating life. She now doesn't want to see me because she thinks I tried to hide it from her. I didn't even realize she stayed up all night being very sad and heart broken until she told me a day later. It really didn't even cross my mind to tell her because I didn't think anything of it. Was I wrong for this? I'll take the advice for my next attempt at dating. Because I'm truly not understanding if I was actually in the wrong here.

I apologize Suze. Don't mean to hijack your thread. Please forgive me

I don't think u did anything wrong at all . U never even met this lady on line ! So there was no physical intimacy , it was an on line friendship that's all . Also , were u supposed to tell your most recent friend about every single woman u have ever spoken to ? That would b a bit ridiculous if u ask me ! I honestly think that your most recent friend is being a bit oversensitive , perhaps she has difficulty trusting men ? I have to b really honest , if I really liked a man ( and if I was single , which I'm not ) I would not b as easily put off as she was . Does she expect everyone to always b perfect ? Does she not know how to forgive ( not that I think that u gave her anything that needs to b forgiven ) when someone makes an honest mistake ?
I honestly think that u have had a fortunate escape , she did not value u very highly if she can so easily discard u .
If u r still serious about her u could try apologising and c how that goes down with her but beware , she has shown u that she expects u to never dissapoint her and , that if u do , she's not inclined to b a forgiving person . I do hope that u won't allow this experience to put u off from searching for your special someone . God sees u and He knows what and who , is right for u , b patient and trust in Him . Best wishes in Christ ❤️