I actually very much dislike scary movies, ever since I was born. When I was a child my dad and sister would scare me and I always hated it, to the point of crying.
I watched two scary movies in theaters growing up, The Ring and Saw. After watching The Ring, I had to sleep in my sisters bedroom for an entire week cause I was afraid that the ring girl would kill me in my sleep. After watching Saw, I rode my bicycle home from the theater and I was so paranoid about the saw guy following me home.
I think where I get most of my trauma during this season is when I was at a party in 2012 before I accepted Jesus as my lord and savior. Someone who I thought was a friend offered me a drug called spice to smoke in front of my then fiance. After smoking it, I thought everyone there was demon possessed. I called out to Jesus, yelling his name to come save me. It was something I learned to say cause my grandmother told me that evil will flee. After minutes passed, my God brother and God father came to the house and snapped me out of it after a half to an hour of me acting like the person who I thought was my friend tried to kill me with this drug, even though I’m the one who took it. Then I safely went back home after a while of saying I won’t go in the car with my then fiance cause I thought she was going to crash the car killing both of us. Just a very traumatic experience that I have recovered from.
It’s just strange seeing my little brother making certain questionable decisions during this season as well. I know I am not his parent but he bought a certain Halloween costume this year where I know he just wants to fit in with the world and I thought that I helped lead him in the right direction over the last ten years of me being here for him but I guess not. We use to watch sermons from my church together but after a while he stopped and eventually he decided he is not a Christian, so I don’t push anything on him, at least not anymore but he knows where I stand and that when ever Jesus intercepts him, that he has a brother in Christ waiting for him.
I did drink 2 oz of wine each day the last two days, so maybe that is why I had those type of thoughts about a demonic month. So forgive me for bringing it up cause I know it is not biblical at all.