With Deepest Sympathy
Praise the Lord
Thank you, as God has taken it all to teach me trust to God only in risen Son for me. I stand in trust to God over it all
To further see what happened to me in this troubled time frame'
My Sister I saw as a waste of life, a rebellious one, yet loving, we were close, fought a lot at first, growing up, yet we became real close. Then I got the call at age 14 from San Francisco, from the coroner declared her dead, died on an overdose of Heroin.
Devastated, what a waste of life and wonderment, how. why and how can I deal with this?
Then I became an alcoholic, not accepting this as true, thinking she is alive and not dead, So I ventured away from home, not at first.
Then my dad died from sclerosis of the liver, at age 63, three years after his daughter, my sister died. I then got married, joined the military as more troubles pursed after me from there.
Then at age 21 my eldest brother died at age 31. He was found on campus crusade for Christ in 1978. Found by hikers two miles above the sanctuary there then. Leaned against a boulder with a Bible in his hand. as dead.
I had to go to San Bernardino California to pick up my brothers belongings. I was told to go to the main office there. To talk to Bill Bright the manger then in 1978. When I got there, I got asked by those there, about wanting to do more Aurtopsies on my brothers death. I asked why? They said they had already done three and could not find a physical causer of death.
I immediately stood up and said, do as many as you want I am now convinced God is real through Son Jesus
It ended up on his death certificate no physical cause of death found.
it was reported from my other sister, whom is still alive, that John my brother who died, told her over the phone about three days before his death, that "God just loves me"
That is when my new life in God began. And I love God knowing my brother, my sister, my mother my dad are safe somehow in his love and mercy. I just feel it and stand in that.
It took until almost until age 27 to leave alcohol as gone, as not a part of me any longer, which is God's doing not mine at all
then other things being peeled off me after that too. It is as like peeling an onion, there are a lot of tears when peeling one, yet the center is a sweet smelling savor
I stand and stood and continue to stand as if I am a Job in the book of job, yet me I have done much wrong and agree with God those things were never good for me to continue in them. So I quit willingly, not ever having to quit as gets taught to do by religion. which puts people in bondage. The Law was never meant for anyone to obey it. No one could or can but Son Jesus. It was meant to show us our need for the Savior to be in us and lead us new in love and mercy to all, not a few as if some people are better than others, when no one is.
Therefore, this is what I see from those deaths
My Sister as a waste of life in losing her life. My dad in what I now see as stinking thinking got him killed early at age 63.
Then my eldest brother no physical cause of death. God just loves us all, is that message I get and got to this day. There is life after physical death. Learning to live daily as if am already dead to the first birth of flesh Romans 6
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