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I’m seperated from my wife facing divorce, she’s always on my heart and mind. Since Jan I have fallen back into drinking and lust. I’m living with another woman on top of it. Please ask God to do for me what I can’t do for myself. I must surrender myself at the altar soon or fear the worst. PLEASE intercede for me! So hurt lost and sad right now

Praying....

sounds like the flesh using your stress against you.

Yes worry and fear is the ammo

Philippians 4:19

"she's always on my heart & mind"! you thought it, you said it & NOW, ACT ON IT! sit in your favorite room with no noise for a couple of hours & start cogitating on the 1st time you laid eyes on her. think that thought thru as much as possible! now, think on the thoughts in which you were wondering about a relationship with her. move step by step in this process. yup!, you got it, think on the 3rd step in the developing friendship. memories have a behooving, priceless, distinct, reassuring, soulful & spiritual way of reminding us of our appreciation of what we secured in our lives in the past whether it's person place or thing. DO NOT RUSH THIS PROCESS, you'll mess it up. i'm saying this again, TAKE PRECIOUS TIME while reminiscing. it is massively important. & DON'T ALLOW THE DEVIL TO HAVE YOU QUIT! he doesn't want you doing this. you are going to begin to smile when you recall memories of your 1st experiences with her. little by little, you will desire her love & want her back. if you are born again, you will hear the promptings of the Holy Spirit & your spirit to strengthen yourself & remove yourself from the other woman & lust. when you speak to her about returning, practice your speech 1st! blessings to you & prayers for you.

As I am as well.

I don't think that @gratefuloneson will read this message, but here is a good prayer for us.

I will indeed pray the Lord will give you a miracle and that He'll give you the strength to do His will. I've ben where you are and you're exactly right: If you keep putting it off you may reach a point of no return. Fear can be your friend if it motivates you to do what's right. The journey of a thousand miles starts with a step.

No one is judging you. Divorce can be painful. My female cousin got divorced many years ago. She endured lot of pain. I once knew former tennis friend, 1990s. He had serious drinking problems. And married woman. She tried to use him for his money, and tried to get him but her car. He divorced her.
Psalm chapter 34
The Lord is near to the broken heart's and saves the crushed in Spirit.
I repent every day and im honest with Jesus when I pray to him. Im not perfect either. I try my hardest to walk the line. Jesus is counting on the body of Christ. Jesus depends on us. We're all sinners, whether Christian or heathen.
Christian people must set the example to the outsiders. Ask Jesus to give you strength to get out that situation.
Proverbs chapter 3
Trust in the Lord with your heart, and don't lean on your own understanding, in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make straight your path. We must be willing to help our selfs first, and Jesus will meet us half way. When ship starts taking in water, and is at risk of sinking, cry out to God for help, and strength.
Psalm 102
For I have eaten ashes like bread, and mingled my drink with weeping. People bring problems on themselves, and try to blame God. Some times we make bad decisions and mistakes. We learn from it.
96:10
Say among the heathen that the Lord reigns : the world also shall be established that it shall not be moved : He shall judge the people righteously. Every one will be judged on judgement Day. We are accountable for our decision and words. We need to go to Jesus and ask for help. Jesus can stop your boats from sinking.
94
He that chastiiseth the heathen, shall not He correct?
He teaches man knowledge, shall not be know ?
94:12
Blessed is the man whom thou chasteness,O, Lord. Yes, God will correct Christian people and heathen. We reap what we sow.
94:13
That thou may give him rest from the days of adversity. Untill the Pit be digged for the wicked.
If you're Christian, and Jesus chastity on you, say thank you, and kiss the paddle. It means, God still loves you. Jesus corrects Christian people, and the wicked in different ways. Jesus loves those who repent and love him and serve him. Jesus hates the Wicked, Psalm chapter 16. Discipline and correction are both different. Jesus will discipline his servants. And the wicked are going to hell, unless they repent and change from their wicked ways.
Is Christian going to sink his own ship. Or go to Jesus, and ask for help. It's there choice. Peace.