Hi all
I joined this group seeking Christian fellowship
I was born into Christianity however as I got older I found that I was more interested in the world. Generally been an atheist since and developed a habit with weed. Still during this time I was fairly successful at work and over covid isolation got more and more into weed.
When I was young I was heavily involved in the Catholic Church but when my mother found a new partner he did what he could to ridicule my beliefs and prevent me going to church so I drifted away. I always remember how important God was to me when I was young.
Every time I really struggle I need God and run back to him, only to return to the world once the crisis has past
So now again I am really struggling and have returned to God and prayer. The reason I am struggling is because of my weed addiction and now I am in a lot of trouble at work
I’m super depressed and wanted to kill myself but found solace in the word and have been use Gods word to help me cope. I listen to prayers and scripture each day and night as it salves my soul
I have tried to focus on following the commandments in full and obeying gods word as never before. I am trying to rebuild my faith secretly as no one in my life would understand.
I never thought I’d be able to quit weed and normally if you do the insomnia is crazy however for some reason I managed to quit cold Turkey over a
10 days ago with not much issue which is amazing given how addicted I was. Last time I tried this I count sleep for days and relapsed pretty quickly.
So I want to change my life and have no one in my life to share my faith with. I’m not wedded to any particular denomination but I am interested in Bible based worship as I am not sure about the catholic part anymore
Hoping to find fellowship
Hi, and this is where it all starts,
"I was born into Christianity however as I got older I found that I was more interested in the world." Is what you wrote, And, the question people must continue to ask themselves is, (Where does the desires of my heart lay?) (Is it with the world, and all the temporary that will pass away, or is it "eternal" with wanting to know and please God?) I asked a person, "Can a person be addicted to cocaine and also be a Christian?" At first they replied no, but then said, "I don't know.", which was wisdom of their years. The answer is yes. God accepts us as we are, and gradually changes us from the inside out to reflect His righteous character. It would seem that people who claim to be Christians all their life would be the ones who reflect His righteous Character the most, but obviously, that is not true. True relationships require, trust, reliance, and love, and none of those can we do, except that the Holy Spirit lives through us, just as Jesus described that He is the vine, we are the branch, but it is the Holy Spirit that produces the fruit. Long story short, keep your heart with all diligence for out of it are the issues of life. Proverbs 4:23-27, and work out your own salvation for it is God who causes us to both to will and do His good pleasure, Philippians 2:12. Do that and you will be living a Christian life, despite the giving into the desires of the flesh. I say that because once a person repents they are forgiven, and the desires of the flesh merely become stumbling blocks to the new desires of our heart, and that there is only two ways a person can become "unsaved", one is by "apathy", being half hearted about loving God, the other is to outright turn the back on God and walk away. But, Do the scriptures that I quoted you, and you will be relying on God, instead of yourself, to fulfill His righteousness in you because of the His umbrella of grace, and do that to remember you must rely and depend on His mercy, and "new Covenant" of grace of salvation to keep you a child of God.