My full testimony

I went back and forth about talking about my full testimony today here but I reassured myself that it’s going to be a breath of fresh air to get it out, especially because Christians create such a kind and caring environment. I’ve had a past with experimenting with new age spiritually the past years since the pandemic and those were the worst years of my life. I developed an eating disorder while I was in early middle school and it got worse the older I got. I don’t come from a very affectionate family so I also began to look for ways to get attention and to “fill the void.” I started doing nicotine and marijuana and eventually I found myself being in a toxic relationship with a man a lot older than me. I began to get attached to him because “he was my first everything” and “he loves me” and I now know that that’s all untrue. After months of exclusively just talking, I started to meet up with him so we could have sex. 2 of the times was consensual but one of the time he got me dangerously high and took advantage of me. In short, my parents found out and I reported what happened to the police a month after the incident. This was one of my lowest points as I faced great scrutiny from almost everyone around me and I felt embarrassed and ashamed of myself. I decided to not talk to him for my own sake. When I was still using social media a guy I had added but never talked to started to randomly start to make conversation with me. A little while after talking I confess to him about what happened to me and he opens up about his own experiences. He then asks me if I believe in God. I say “Kind of” and that’s when he tells me what believing in him and starting to pray will rid me of all my problems. Something started to change in me, almost like I was looking through the world with new eyes. I started to discover that social media or guys won’t heal me. But God can. All the time I thought I was lonely I want, God was with me. I was scared that he wouldn’t accept me for all I done but our Lord has the kindest heart and opened his arms to me. All this time I was looking for someone who would make me feel better, be a friend through it all and I found that person in God. ❤️ currently, I’m not talking to the guy who introduced me back into Christianity again but I’ll forever be grateful for the guidance he provided. Along with this, a lot of toxic people or relationships have been trying to come back into my life but I’m staying strong and I’m definitely not planning on ever going back to them. I’m so glad I came back to Christ❤️❤️ doing better than ever. Amen

Luke 7:36-50

"And one of the Pharisees desired him that he would eat with him. And he went into the Pharisee's house, and sat down to meat. And, behold, a woman in the city, which was a sinner, when she knew that Jesus sat at meat in the Pharisee's house, brought an alabaster box of ointment, And stood at his feet behind him weeping, and began to wash his feet with tears, and did wipe them with the hairs of her head, and kissed his feet, and anointed them with the ointment. Now when the Pharisee which had bidden him saw it, he spake within himself, saying, This man, if he were a prophet, would have known who and what manner of woman this is that toucheth him: for she is a sinner. And Jesus answering said unto him, Simon, I have somewhat to say unto thee. And he saith, Master, say on. There was a certain creditor which had two debtors: the one owed five hundred pence, and the other fifty. And when they had nothing to pay, he frankly forgave them both. Tell me therefore, which of them will love him most? Simon answered and said, I suppose that he, to whom he forgave most. And he said unto him, Thou hast rightly judged. And he turned to the woman, and said unto Simon, Seest thou this woman? I entered into thine house, thou gavest me no water for my feet: but she hath washed my feet with tears, and wiped them with the hairs of her head. Thou gavest me no kiss: but this woman since the time I came in hath not ceased to kiss my feet. My head with oil thou didst not anoint: but this woman hath anointed my feet with ointment. Wherefore I say unto thee, Her sins, which are many, are forgiven; for she loved much: but to whom little is forgiven, the same loveth little. And he said unto her, Thy sins are forgiven. And they that sat at meat with him began to say within themselves, Who is this that forgiveth sins also? And he said to the woman, Thy faith hath saved thee; go in peace."

Needed this so much, I saw this at the best timing. It’s been a rough night. Praise Christ ❤️‍🩹 Starting to tear up honestly

I am happy that it helped.

If you ever need prayer, or a word of encouragement, then please do not hesitate to ask.

May God bless you and strengthen you.

Thank you so much my precious friend🥹🥹 God loves you

Thank you for sharing @aeriss009 God is so good, and merciful!

It made me smile, you mentioning the guy who spoke to you about God. Since I've felt closer to God again, I've been provided with a mission field, of penpals and folks on insta etc.

Its so encouraging to hear an example of the effect sharing online can have...!😀

The Lord bless and keep you 🙏

Thank you for your kindness, brother ❤️🙏🏻

@aeriss009

How are things going?

I just want to make sure that you are doing okay.

Thank you for sharing your experiences, I am sure it wasn't easy for you to do that, but just think of all the people you helped and encouraged by sharing! God is good, isn't He? We don't deserve His grace and mercy, but He gives it to us freely. I don't know you, but I'm proud of you for turning to Him.

Hello sister. Im glad you came to God. You definitely had difficult, and painful journey. I don't like to use Hollywood movies, and the movie Exorcist is exaggerated. Karesh the priest reluctant to get involved in case we're young woman is possessed by a demom. The priest Faith was weak. His mother recently passed away. Karesh the priest tried to get other tests down on her. Her mother still wasn't convinced. Finally, slowly, it led to exorcism. Regan was messing with the occult, and opened door way to evil spirits. This demon used Regan to lure the priest. Satan will use guilt trips or spiritual oppression to repeatedly attack Christian. He will use temptation. To draw Christian away from God. Our faith is absolutely essential to our relationship with God.
Acts 4:20 When Christians full of the Spirit, empowered faith, he cannot stop, and cannot be stopped speaking about what he/she has seen and heard.
Hebrew:11:4. Not even Death can silence him.
This means that nothing is More humanly destructive to the domain of darkness than a faith filled Christian.
Through him/her , Jesus destroys the devils works. Satan is after your faith. Satan primary goal is various attacks on us is to take down our faith. Devil primary goal against the church, body of Christ, is to fragment of United faith, and isolate Christian people, weaking the church. Making individual Christian more vulnerable.
Hebrew chapter 3:12-13. His forces are hell bent on these strategic objectives. Get the picture. Ephesians chapter 6, Christian people are in spiritual warfare against Powers of darkness.
If Satan can weaken our faith, he can immobilize us. If he can destroy our faith, he can destroy us. But if Satan can't disarm our faith, Jesus will destroy him through it.
Demon attacks karesh Faith, and empowers guilt trips. He let his mother die, he was irresponsible. Repeatedly attacking. Demon trys mimd tricks, trys to confuse karesh. Tricks of the devil.
Unbelief is very dangerous. Entertaining thoughts of doubt. Matthew chapter 14. Peter took his eyes of Jesus, his focus shifted to the wind and water. When I find myself sinking, its always evidence of disbelief.
Demon got priest karesh to start questioning his faith and integrity. Karesh wasn't steadfast. When Christians order Satan and evil spirits away from us, its done in faith and steadfast obedience to God. Devil tricks to employ to feel worhless, guilt, shame, strategy of the devil. Unbelief is extremely dangerous. He dsmantled karesh Faith during the exorcism.
2 Corinthians chapter 10:4
For the weapons we fight with are not weapons of the world, on the contrary, they have divime power to demolish strong holds. Priest karesh lost his battle, because the devil got into his mind, and got stronghold. The devil wants to penetrate your mimd.
Keep the Faith and steadfast. Peace.