My story

Hi all

I joined this group seeking Christian fellowship

I was born into Christianity however as I got older I found that I was more interested in the world. Generally been an atheist since and developed a habit with weed. Still during this time I was fairly successful at work and over covid isolation got more and more into weed.

When I was young I was heavily involved in the Catholic Church but when my mother found a new partner he did what he could to ridicule my beliefs and prevent me going to church so I drifted away. I always remember how important God was to me when I was young.

Every time I really struggle I need God and run back to him, only to return to the world once the crisis has past

So now again I am really struggling and have returned to God and prayer. The reason I am struggling is because of my weed addiction and now I am in a lot of trouble at work

I’m super depressed and wanted to kill myself but found solace in the word and have been use Gods word to help me cope. I listen to prayers and scripture each day and night as it salves my soul

I have tried to focus on following the commandments in full and obeying gods word as never before. I am trying to rebuild my faith secretly as no one in my life would understand.

I never thought I’d be able to quit weed and normally if you do the insomnia is crazy however for some reason I managed to quit cold Turkey over a
10 days ago with not much issue which is amazing given how addicted I was. Last time I tried this I count sleep for days and relapsed pretty quickly.

So I want to change my life and have no one in my life to share my faith with. I’m not wedded to any particular denomination but I am interested in Bible based worship as I am not sure about the catholic part anymore

Hoping to find fellowship

Welcome!
You may find this thread (<= link) helpful .

So glad you’re here, Matt; we need you, too. So WELCOME.

Thank you for the welcome guys

Hi Matt, we are also in Australia, feel free to join our Skype live ministry and songs, audio only, no video. You will be encouraged by the ministry.
https://join.skype.com/0l1PQQofe4Ol
That is the link for the gospel service, if you like it there is other ministry groups.

I enjoyed your testimony and glad to hear that God is helping you to overcome your addiction. Glad to have you join our community. Welcome to CC.

Precious friend, A Very Warm Welcome To Chat.
I will pray for you:

Grace Word for our infirmities!

Please Be Very RICHLY Encouraged And Edified In
The LORD JESUS CHRIST, And His Word Of Truth, Rightly
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Hello Matt. We are so glad that you have joined our family here. There are many interesting people here so you should soon be getting some new Christian friends. Welcome Matt!

Good for you mate, I'm non-denom too because we don't need any denom to do our thinking for us..
Jesus said-"Call nobody teacher except me" (Matt 23:8-10)

And it's no good running with the herds of any denom, cult or sect if they're all going up the spout, because the bottom line is-
"Work out your own salvation..." (Philip 2:12 KJV)
Even Avon in Blakes Seven says so..

Jesus is like the Royce character in 'Predators' who says "Follow me"..-

Welcome Matt, give yourself time to heal, Focus on the lord and his teachings and you will be just fine.

One day at a time..

Blessings!

Hi Matt,

I hope you find what you are looking for. I was also raised Catholic.
I'm glad you didn't go with the permanent option of suicide. People who are suffering try to escape the torment, who mistakenly think that will end, realize that they don't know what serious suffering is and it's just begun. That said, suicide doesn't stop suffering at all. God cares about you even when it seems others might not even notice. I have the solution to that, but first want to throw out an idea or two about sleep.

Sleep issues can have many causes. It doesn't take much stress to keep someone up all night. It might be that dependence on pot too. Your body might be accustomed to achieving that state of fatigue by smoking .
When someone gives it up, the body needs a chance to reset back to solid melatonin production. There are a lot of things one can do to help. One I tried recently with one of the toughest setbacks in my life is the use of healthy herbs that have no addictive or negative qualities that I have experienced. They are available as teas and capsules.
The first is a hormone I mentioned called melatonin. I start with a small dose, according to the label. Then I take a little more as needed until the effect wears off in a week or two. Then take off a couple few days and start over. Valerian tea and chamomile tea is helpful. Mint I've found helps with gentle relaxation that you don't really notice other than decreased stress and being able to fall asleep. You might want to look into those in grocery stores. . I found the combination works best for me. Also getting off electronics and reading the Psalms or gospel of John at night helps. YMMV.

I really think this is the perfect time to listen to two messages. They are short. The second has a prayer at the end that I would pray. If you have any questions, feel free to let me know. I will pray for you friend.

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Hi Matt7711 welcome to CC!!! Sounds like you survived a lot and now you're here w/many good people to meet and fellowship with🤩 Jump in on the Forums when you're ready and may God bless & keep you always!

I’ll def check this out when does it run?

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To be fair I feel like I was being a bit of a drama queen compared to others suffering
But I was really hurting and felt worthless. But to be honest I really have a lot to be thankful for
However it feels like God made me suffer to teach me a lesson, my only salve was scripture
I took a leap of faith and just tried to trust God and guess what- things turned out better than expected
I worked hard to think whatever happens this is a lesson, I tried to just god

And guess what

I avoided any serious repercussions at work and was given the benefit of the doubt. managed to work thru some issues I was having with my manager and broke my weed habit

I’m still not out of the woods and I realise this is where the danger is, very tempting to backslide and be very pleased with myself

However I think it will help if reject faith in myself and place it in God instead

I guess that is a bonus, to me all I want to serve and that makes me happy in this world. I love God and if he sees fit to save me then I can only be grateful.

God has been super merciful to me specifically despite my sinful ways

Study the contents of those links. You won't regret it. Quite the contrary.

Yes, God is too good.