No, if you could tell me his plans, then that would put you on the same field of being a god.
Well I've tried secular jobs and they all fall through and fail miserably, they never last long. I would love to do what I thought God called me to do and preach, but I've never had any help trying to get into Bible college and ones I applied to on my own rejected me.
I might be getting into a secular college this fall but it's for a secular job so I can pay for a bachelor of ministry through correspondence course. Because I can't afford it on ODSP.
I hate the fact I don't have reliable transportation to start looking for a church again.
Of course I love God, if I didn't I would be on a secular social site and abandoning all efforts to try and Persue the ministry. Even though I am discouraged and questioning my calling and whether God even loves me.
Well I've tried secular jobs and they all fall through and fail miserably, they never last long. I would love to do what I thought God called me to do and preach, but I've never had any help trying to get into Bible college and ones I applied to on my own rejected me.
I might be getting into a secular college this fall but it's for a secular job so I can pay for a bachelor of ministry through correspondence course. Because I can't afford it on ODSP.
I hate the fact I don't have reliable transportation to start looking for a church again.
Of course I love God, if I didn't I would be on a secular social site and abandoning all efforts to try and Persue the ministry. Even though I am discouraged and questioning my calling and whether God even loves me.
Read it cover to cover once a year for a few years; pray about the parts you struggle to understand and let the Holy Spirit give you wisdom and understanding. That is going to be a much better curriculum than any Bible college you can attend.
Anyway, maybe your calling is not to be a preacher anyway.
When I first believed I started doing the work of an evangelist; it didn't work too well for me and got a bit discouraged and even somewhat angry at God.
Turns out; he had other plans for me.
Just wait; and trust in him; lean not upon your own understanding.
And yes he loves you; as much as a parent who loves his children doesn't give him what he wants, but rather gives him what he needs; even if that mean the kid will be mad at him for a season.