Pain

The greatest pain i feel is not hunger, homelessness, suffering, pain or sickness. The worse pain i go through everyday is rejection. Sometimes i feel like creating space for myself and living there alone.
No one will understand living in a society where you are afraid to talk(once you speak, everyone can say from where you come from and make mockery of you), cannot associate and most at time refuse services or even having people to force you perform a shameful task.
I am always so joyful when people reply my messages on here. I feel like someone is talking to me. This is the only society I freely interact. I login here several time a day just to check if someone has like or reply to my message.
It is not all about physical needs. It is about self-esteem. In real life, i feel no hope only despair, no joy and no peace. Sometimes seeing people build anger in me and I feel like disappearing into space.
It took me several suicide attempts to understand that a holy, perfect, creative, all-knowing God created and love me
I found myself fighting for attention, only to be rejected again and again. Even when I am accepted, the feeling is not mutual as I also feeling it could be for a reason or for a while.

Welcome!

welcome Plavious,

I understand what you say you are not alone A verse came to mind when I read your post;

Joh 15:18 If the world hate you, ye know that it hated me before it hated you.
Joh 15:19 If ye were of the world, the world would love his own: but because ye are not of the world, but I have chosen you out of the world, therefore the world hateth you.
Joh 15:20 Remember the word that I said unto you, The servant is not greater than his lord. If they have persecuted me, they will also persecute you; if they have kept my saying, they will keep yours also.
Joh 15:21 But all these things will they do unto you for my name's sake, because they know not him that sent me.

We do live in an angry world, things are evolving rapidly, I see that people are changing also, being absorbed by the things of this world, abd forgetting to love one another. You are not alone I am always here is you want to write to me about anything, I am here almost every day.

Also you know God has a purpose for you or would not know about him like the rest of the world, they hear but the seed did not take, Remember the main reason Jesus the son of GOD came to earth was to announce the kingdom of heaven, focus on this, persevere. The Father Loves you never forget that, there is no greater and perfect Love, he is there for you

I am here if you need to chat.

A brother in Christ.

Amen

God bless you

#ICAMETOSHARE

"Let us pray to accept things we cannot change, and courage to change
the things we can. I pray these words are heard and to know there are times we
should take an inventory of self. And to strive for our own peace and wellbeing.
'Let us pray to take a serious inventory of our relationship with God, for here shall
be found great new things."
'Amen'

Psalm 18:28

I will say a prayer for you to be wanted, needed, and appreciated. Glad to have you onboard with us. Welcome to CC.

Hello plavious..

I was wondering your name made me remember another user with a similar name.. From Cameroo Africa.. A member of the minority English speaking people there.. I remember him on another forum site called Worthyboards..

Anyway i have taken the time to read your post and i am glad you have discovered the Love of the LORD which is with you.. I also know how unaccepting others in this world can be.. People are people and sadly that means people can be very cruel to those who are a bit different..

May the LORD let you know more often how much you are loved Plavious..

Same dude.

They preached the good news in that city and won a large number of disciples. Then they returned... strengthening the disciples and encouraging them to remain true to the faith.
—Acts 14:21-22

Hello my brother and friend

I feel rejection too. A few best friends and other people abandoned me. Its shocking how people can change after years of friendship (one small thing and the friendship is over). Its painfull, my selfconfidence is shattered, worrying about what people think about me. Mostly i avoid social interaction.

Remember: You are not alone! So much people in this world feel the same as you and i!

Luckily we have God and Jesus, we can always pray and talk to God. God hears our prayer always, even if we dont feel His presence.

This is my favorite bible verse for you:
‘But anyone who drinks the water I give will never be thirsty again. The water I give people will be like a spring flowing inside them. It will bring them eternal life.’
‭‭John‬ ‭4:14‬ ‭ERV‬‬
https://bible.com/bible/406/jhn.4.14.ERV

You are blessed and loved by our God.
Every human is equal in God’s picture.

‘So God created humans in his own image. He created them to be like himself. He created them male and female.’
‭‭Genesis‬ ‭1:27‬ ‭ERV‬‬
https://bible.com/bible/406/gen.1.27.ERV


Read Psalms 34 and 91 everyday, im sure you feel muchhh better afterwards!

Watch some youtube videos from Nick Vujicic, and you will see how great, big, powerfull God is.
https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Nick_Vujicic

Even if the path is small, keep walking. Blessings are waiting for you!

I pray good things for you and bless you in Jesus name!

Nick.

First seek the kingdom of God that is within. // Capture all thoughts making them in subjection to God. //

Meaning, you seem very emotionally volatile, often as myself. But I have been alone all my life and have eventually been led to "Ego death", not a religious strange thing, but the removal of desire for worldly things; detachment from needing attention or "stuff", even the need to be getting messages from online or other. It is not important to me anymore. Therefore, I will pray for you. But, will also give an advisory opinion of "work on Ego death". But be aware that things that give you enjoyment in this world will have less enjoyment due a detachment from the worldly lusts of the flesh. It ends in a silent peaceful mind, in control over food addictions and more, with more self control, yet the flesh and sinful person in mind and wantings clings in a battle to the world when in "Ego combat". It is merely the changing of ungodly habits to godly. Do not leave a hole in your life from removing ungodly things without filling it with godly, or it will be replaced with worse etc. Only advice, you do not have to take it. I will pray also. God bless, in Jesus name, amen.