Sure. I don't deny the truth aspect of worship. Worshipping as the Lord has instructed is vital to true worship. But it is also to be done from our innermost being or you merely have a form of godliness while denying the power thrreof.
From our inner most being, that is exactly how I would describe it.
You know I am not sure why nut ;ate;y God has been walomh me around 4 or 5 and this interupts my sleep but I use it to my advantage and this is when he and I worship together.
This morning something happened, I was immensely close with him this morning The love that I was enveloped in the love I was expressing to him as the spirit I imagine was dancing around us because it was that impactful that close everything I have come to know of him thus far everything my heart has for him theway I know him his personality his attributes his traits I know what makes him laugh I know what touches his heart I can tell you in an instant when he lets me what he is feeling or thinking because we just know each other.
The love and all of this that I treasure I was just in tears thinking about Christian chat. Even though it was bad for my eyes and I hadn't been online in a very long time due to the fact being on here strains my eyes I have tried all kinds of things even this dark mode thing I have works but only in part.
But it was in my discovery of the secrets of the kingdom that is found in this worship that he gave me a message a mission and it was one where I was promised that if I obey I would finally be given what I have longed for for so long. I would enter into a whole other level with him he knew my heart he knew I wanted to go deeper that I wanted to go as far as I was allowed but I could never seem to breach that barrier.
I just knew there was more thinking about the bible all the doctrines denominations all the stuff you see here and throughout the body it has always bugged me I mean is it not obvious that satans best tactic as he knows how war works is to divide confuse and conquer and Jesus clearly warned us the bible warned us this was going to happen
A kingdom divided cannot stand and my reasoning was that if the method we are using to know God tounderstand the word of God is not working and we see the end reults always being the same is that not the very definition of insanity?
I figured Jesus was able to silence the Pharisee's making them unable to respond as they tried to twist words entrap him they represented the very tactic you see all the time in these debates but Jesus was and knew the truth he was able to do this easily.
But that was it wasn't it? he is the truth so if in all our studying in all our research growing ect. in the word of God yet the truth seems to still escape us maybe instead I considered myself not ready to study the word.
I went to Jesus directly I sworse to him that I wanted the truth the real thing and that I would not accept anything less than that I surrendered utterly and completely to him even being on my knees having my head as low as it could be I wanted the truth that badly.
Anyways when I obeyed him and came on here I made a thread called is Jesus your Lord or something like that it has been a while.
I never know what I am going to write when he calls meto write I am the pen he is the writer I just let him take over I become a blank slate and the words just flow.
Long story short I was as outlandish as it sounds sent here with a message and a mission but I am not great at explaining things when the spirit takes over sometimes and the level of which he took over was different and strong it went against my personality but I still didn't take the wheel even though I was tempted.
The point was to be a spar to change how things work here to bring others to the wonderful glorious truth I discovered with him and this morning as I wept for Christian chat my eyes were closed and I said to him that if I could that if it were possible even for just a moment for a second that I could somehow let everyone there feel the connection all that he and I have that it would even for the most hardened people for e mere moment show them the truth of his heart just one heart beat only a single heart beat was all I wanted I even begged him for it.
My prayers never really do much I can pray for someone or for something and for the most part nothing happens or it just met with not yet or no very rarely ever yes this power of prayer I have always believed in but never seen it for myself.
This one this prayer for this heartbeat it is perhaps if I was allowed just one answer to be yes this would be it.
But look at the fruits, what change happened? things pretty much are the same as they always are we were able to reach a few people and for that alone I am grateful it wasn't vain
But the kingdom of God I keep telling everyone he is calling us all to a whole other level with him a position in Christ and note position. The deeper things of God the hidden truths the wonders that go beyond what we originally thought the very heart of the Lord himself.
The truth what everyone claims to know what everyone searches for I sought after it and I found it and the truth is it goes far beyond what we call truth there is a reason the wonder of God is called wonder it is far deeper than we ever imagined and when you discover this truth he is different you and him have a whole other relationship you are as I called it activated you are changed and you can feel it all the time it never leaves it is as if it is possible to be born again more than once not revival but that is the best way I can explain it.