Why am I depressed?

I have been living alone since my grandmother died. Because she took care of me and my mother works as a nurse, took care of me when she came home. My sister and mother's family take care of me when my mother is not around.I make my own food, tea, coffee, because I like kosher food. My family does not eat kosher food...😞

The doctor prescribed a sleeping pill and an anti-depressant pill.(olanzapine and fluoxetine) I recovered completely.But falls asleep .
depression did not go away.

Paul's blessing in Romans 15:13Now may the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you believe in Him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit.

Let Holy Spirit fill you with joy and peace as you believe in Him, the God of hope.
joy; delight; gladness, peace; quietness; rest Strong's Greek 1515 eirene, one in the Hebraic sense of the health (welfare) of an individual, shalom; nothing missing, whole

Did you listen to the story of Wigglesworth? I never knew about him till a few days ago. Can you try playing the names of God video to try and help with depression. I feel very bad for you and pray somehow to help but what to do. I ask at a local group of Christians if they know someone like Wigglesworth to try and ask God to heal you. On post #14 of this thread TabinRivCa posted about a man named Hagin and the son of that man is alive and lives in the state of Oklahoma and belongs maybe to the same Christian group that I am talking to. Maybe someone will tell me if he can pray for you or something. One problem I see is this verse in the Bible)))))Luke 18:8 I tell you that he will avenge them speedily. Nevertheless when the Son of man cometh, shall he find faith on the earth?((((((()...Not many people today have much faith. Try and pray to find people like this verse)))))1 Corinthians 12:9 To another faith by the same Spirit; to another the gifts of healing by the same Spirit;

Yes

I did not hear from Anita or anyone else at my local group. I think it is necessary to look some other places for people of faith and that have gifts of The Spirit. Maybe some on this chat site but be cautious of people that make claims. On television many people make claims just like you found at the Tabor Ashram. Also on internet the same. I am not familiar with many internet people but the few that I tried to talk with were not very willing to help but seemed only interested to tell there own story and get money. Some believe they have special knowledge. Be cautious!

Siddhi, maybe you can relate to this Psalm #86 verses 1--7..............................

1 Bend down, O LORD, and hear my prayer; answer me, for I need your help.

2 Protect me, for I am devoted to you. Save me, for I serve you and trust you. You are my God.

3 Be merciful to me, O Lord, for I am calling on you constantly.

4 Give me happiness, O Lord, for I give myself to you.

5 O Lord, you are so good, so ready to forgive, so full of unfailing love for all who ask for your help.

6 Listen closely to my prayer, O LORD; hear my urgent cry.

7 I will call to you whenever I’m in trouble, and you will answer me.

Hello Siddhi:

I am going to respond to your post, but I will rearrange some of your words so that you may be encouraged. I will put your words in red. And I will not address all your comments.

1. God did not allow you to be disabled because you sinned as a child. When the apostles asked Jesus whether a blind man had been born blind because he or his parents had sinned, Jesus said that was not the reason. He was born blind so that God would be glorified through him being healed (John 9:1-3). So God wants to be glorified through your healing.

2. It is important that you believe that Jesus is the Son of God. Do you also believe (1) that He is God, (2) that He became a Man to die for your sins, (3) that He was buried, (4) that He rose again the third day so that you would be justified and receive eternal life? If so have you asked Him to forgive your sins and have you received Him as your own personal Lord and Savior? If not you should do that immediately.

3. If you say you saw the Holy Spirit then we must accept that as a fact. But He is also God, and He would not have appeared to you to frighten you. If He spoke to you about Jesus as your Savior then that was truly the Holy Spirit. If He did not point you to the Savior then it could have been another spirit.

4. As to "monotheism" if that means that you reject all the false gods of Hinduism then that is very good. At the same time God wants you to believe in the Holy Trinity. That God is Father, Son, and Holy Spirit, yet one God. This is not polytheism but "the Mystery of God, and of the Father, and of Christ".

5. I checked out Tabor Ashram. It is run by Roman Catholic priests, and they have "V.C." after their names. It means that they belong to the Catholic order of Vincentian priests and brothers. The Roman Catholic church does not preach the true Gospel, so if they were unable to help you, you should not be surprised. It is best to find a Gospel preaching church outside the Roman Catholic church.

6. If you want divine healing, simply pray to God the Father through the Lord Jesus Christ and tell Him that you desperately want to be healed and that you believe He can heal you. And He can heal you completely if He so chooses. But not all Christians are healed of all their physical disabilities. However, in your case do not think negatively, but persist in prayer. Jesus said we should knock on the door of Heaven, and keep on knocking. So that is what God would have you to do.

7 Unlike Hindus, For Christians there are no "sinful foods". If you prefer to continue being a vegetarian, that will be fine. If you eat non-vegetarian foods, it might be better for your health. But Jesus will not ask you to eat specific foods, and He has told Christians that all meats are acceptable with prayer and thanksgiving.

8 If you have Jesus within your soul, you do not need any psychiatrist. However, if you are truly a Christian but your family remains as Hindus, you must understand that there will be a spiritual battle, and your faith in Christ will be opposed. So as soon as possible, you should find a church with born again Christians, and be baptized as a believer. That will strengthen you. At the same time read your Bible and pray every day. There are Marathi bibles online such as here https://www.wordproject.org/bibles/mar/. But you should also have a printed Marathi Bible as well as the King James Bible in English.

Hello Siddhi. Sorry to hear of your suffering. Good to know the Holy Spirit appeared to you. The Holy Spirit is the Spirit of Jesus Christ. The Holy Spirit wants you to know that Jesus is the only God and He created you and died for you on the Cross.. If you believe Jesus Christ is the only God, and reject the many false so-called gods who cannot save you, please accept Him as your Savior, go to that same Tabot Ashram, and ask them to Baptize you. Often, Jesus Christ wants to heal, but does it after we are Baptized in obedience to His command. Keep praying to Him, and invoking His Holy Name, by saying "Jesus, Jesus" lovingly throughout the day. I'm sure He will heal you in time, so He can know He is the Only True God, and I will pray for you to be healed and saved and delivered from depression as well, dear Sister in Christ.

God Bless you.

Massage therapy and Chiropractics may help your back pain.

Sometimes depression is a physiological issue. Church your thyroid.
((((Hugs for you))))

God keep you.

Siddhi, I am so very happy to to hear from you. I did remember you even earlier today. Are you feeling ok or did some of the depression leave you?

Now I recall it was about 9 hours ago, 2 pm Chicago time, I mentioned you to Linda at Assemblies of God congregation near me. Linda works there with Anita who had some there pray for you. Very 'interesting' to me that when I was praying earlier today, maybe 6 hours ago or 5 pm, your name was the first I mentioned. Believe it!!! I say another sign that Jesus loves you. Read those other posts as they also have some good information.

Siddhi, If you read this would you please answer?

"It is my hope that perhaps things I have learned may be of encouragement.
'Sincerity of purpose, humility in the knowledge of our own power to help, and
confidence in our understanding of our capacities in community fellowship
are more likely to help in working with others."

https://christianchat.com/threads/this-side-of-the-glass.182929/post-4969321



"I pray perhaps one day we may all come to know our greatest resource
is love! ...When love is unattended to, so be spiritual discipline...unattended."
'Amen'

Tuesday the whole day I was too depressed because I was finding no hope in my dog pet Roxy because her heart enlarged and she got a little delicate when I pet her she starts coughing like she is actually choking from her chest. Anyway it hurts to see her cough sometimes so I was finding no hope for her and I started doubting God and being kinda negative towards him. Then thanked I found a podcast that actually cheered me up but also my favorite band dropped new music so those two things gave me hope and I asked God for forgiveness for all my sins since I was so negative. But yeah things that happen to my dog actually affect me but thanked that there can be hope out there and to come into repentance and then feel much better and healthier because my depression literally left my body and it went away when I prayed and gave thanks.

Sorry to hear....Sounds like improved...Any possibility that allergies with Roxy? Will keep you in prayers.

no just age.

Hello Siddhi, hope you find time to chat here on chat. Sorry to hear you still have depression. Do you use the medicine the doctor prescribed?

Mat 18:10-14 -> “See that you do not despise one of these little ones. For I tell you that in heaven their angels always see the face of my Father who is in heaven. What do you think? If a man has a hundred sheep, and one of them has gone astray, does he not leave the ninety-nine on the mountains and go in search of the one that went astray? And if he finds it, truly, I say to you, he rejoices over it more than over the ninety-nine that never went astray. So it is not the will of my Father who is in heaven that one of these little ones should perish.”.

one of these little ones>>>Jesus loves you Siddhi......that is why He allowed you to see the Holy Spirit. Now you should pray for the Holy Spirit to guide you.