I am not quite getting what you mean in paragraph one or the part where you said you are calm off what Jesus did and calm and satisfied off my own actions, responses and treamtments of things. Could you explain what you mean and maybe give examples?
Sorry to be a pain.
It's all good, i don't mind, i'll try to articulate my thinking the best way i can lol.
Jesus died for us in our place so the peace for me is that i really don't have to owe the natural anything. He died for me as me so i don't need to be according to or on the same time as whatever is going on. Now the body is at the same time as the wind and the waves of life but the mind and my actions are ahead and looking at the truth. The reason how im able to be calm is because i am that calm, i am that truth, my attention is on myself and what im doing because i know that what im doing is directing where things will go.
It's like when you know that you are the source of your problem based on your purpose to it, you would also realize that you can also be the source of the solution too.
I like what the demons said to Jesus in Luke 4:34
Saying, Let us alone; what have we to do with thee, thou Jesus of Nazareth? art thou come to destroy us? I know thee who thou art; the Holy One of God. "what have we to do with thee" and "art thou come to destroy us?" .They have no purpose with and to Christ but yet they affirm who/what He is and ask His purpose to them if you caught that. When you're in the flesh its their purpose your in but the thing is, is that Christ killed them in the flesh Romans 8:3, and because He did that and we also consider ourselves to be dead to sin they have no power/ purpose over us.
This is why i always tell myself to walk with purpose because if i don't the elements and the powers that be will try to snatch it from me and have me absorbed into the purpose of their own. Purpose is something first you give to yourself from God and can gift to others by applying yourself to them, doing this is not only self affirming but self sustaining... Even Jesus knew His purpose, that's why he'd stop when people would call him "Son of David", and when people doubted Him with their unbelief He was still Jesus wether or not they accepted Him. Approval isn't needed to sustain Him for who He is but it does affirm and from out of Him through you come the results because that's what you're for.
Most people just live as subject to whatever life provides, never really having the awareness of being anything to anything all the while just being lifes play-thing. It can be hard to break out of that cycle though if you don't know the value you have not only change things but to first establish yourself. When you know what you are in Christ that's all you really ever want to do.
To be the light of the world is to the be the truth of things.... If you are the truth of something you don't need to look for evidence because you are and have the truth of that wether or not it agrees with you. Things don't get to have their little egos around you anymore but it's like if you don't know any better they still will have them but they'll have them through you and use you to forward them. This is why Jesus said in John 8:32 "And ye shall know the truth, and the truth shall make you free".
I remember reading John 8:32 and i was like "yeah i know you're the truth, now can you do something?". But what i was missing was that im in Him and He is in me so now I am the truth. I can hear a random persons voice on cc like "The truth of what?". Dunno, lets go find something to be the truth of. So the body presents sickness and chaos, ok, so now i will be healed and health to it by treating and recieving those things from it even though it's saying contrary in the natural. What's going to happen is the same thing that always happens, I the truth that i already am to it will be proven to be true and the sickness and chaos has to go because im not sustaining it by submitting to it by saying and affirming that im sick. I am not sick, it is, so i will be the health it needs to it so that it can follow after me the truth of it... In a sense what im doing is redeeming it unto myself but i wont get all deep and esoteric with that, but yeah.
It's not that im "faithing it to make it" or "faking it to make it" i know exactly what im doing and what i am to it.
It's kindof like taking a sledge hammer to a wall. The wall just stands there saying "im a wall" but i just keep hitting that wall while saying "broken wall", eventually that wall will be a broken wall and i the truth of it will be proven true as ive been doing/saying to it the whole time.