Losing grip

I’m not certain how I got here, but I feel that I’m losing it. I have difficulty connecting with God right now and overall feel a general apathy toward spiritual things. I’ve been working on getting back in the habit of being in the Bible and praying in hopes that will help. I’ve been very irritable and I don’t know what to do anymore. 😕

It is a struggle sometimes to keep that connection with God and our feelings can get in the way. I know I posted something not that long ago as I also have been struggling myself lately and I was hoping someone would post an answer for me or suggestion or some thing but no response and it is one of the reasons I am responding to you now.

I have to remind myself that we can't rely on our feelings as they aren't the truth about God. I have to remind myself that I am the one who has moved away from God because He has promised to be with me till the end of the world so God is here with both of us and wants us both to connect to Him anyway possible.

I have said prays to Him that I really don't know what to pray for, knowing that I'm stuck and I have also just carried on a conversation as if He is right there because in reality He is right here with us both just waiting for us to just talk to Him it doesn't have to be a formal prayer a shout of HELP is enough because God knows us both better than we know ourselves. I depend on that and I have to remind myself just to lean on Jesus and trust in His saving power because I don't have enough of anything to keep going at times.

I am 67 now and starting to understand the limitations of being older and I can say I don't like it much not being able to do what I used to be able to do and starting to feel unstable in even walking sometimes and I have started falling down from loosing my balance starting October 31 last year since then I have fallen three times and thanks to God I have not been hurt in any of those falls, but it tells me I am physically not who I used to be.

I do notice though since my post for help that even though difficult things have happened like a big portion of a tree falling on our car in a recent windstorm that I have had peace in dealing with the steps that you have to go through when a car is totaled or even the storm itself as I knew God was with us at the time and I said a prayer Dear Lord please keep us safe as the wind hit the house and felt as though it had a life of it's own. Peace of knowing God was there.

So continue in your reconnecting with God in your reading and prayer, but just talk to Him as He is right there next to you because He is. I hope this helps you in some small way as responding to you has helped remind me too.