Hi there,
As you requested, I prayed for your circumstances, that the Lord would grant you the Mind of Christ and if the Lord hasn't already done so, I asked that your heart would be lifted of the Curse that Adam and Eve brought upon all of creation. I don't know if you realized it, but this is the problem that we all, at one time, have faced. And as the Bible indicates, most people are still under the effect of this evil Curse.
If you want to know specifically how this Curse is lifted from the human heart, I would study Colossians 2:9-15 first with the NLT translation, and then read these Seven amazing verses with as many other translations as you can get ahold of. The Devil cannot be defeated in the life of a person until the Sinful Nature has been carved out of that person's life. Of all things to pray for, this is number one on top of the list. And more, there is nothing more important in this life that you should obtain more than the Spiritual Circumcision of Jesus Christ.
Now, what's up with this manmade idea of you having "schizoaffective disorder"? Do you really believe that you suffer from this? How much of your suffering is actually because of other people? In other words, I'm trying to gauge if you really believe you have an issue, or if others have convinced you that you have an issue, and that you have taken these issues upon and into your life.
Do you know that others can make us so miserable and unhappy that we can actually convert the sicknesses of others, apply them to our own lives and suffer in our own way from them? What if you were to begin retraining your brain and began telling yourself that you are Normal, Healthy, and Balanced? What if you were to start screaming at the Devil and said things like, "No! I am not playing this game anymore. I refuse to play your games, and you will NOT have this kind of impact on my life!" What if you began yelling at the Devil to take his ways and get out of your life? And what if you have to do this 100, 200, or 300 times per day?
I used to suffer from much anxiety. In fact, you know that nervous ping you get in your stomach when you have to speak in front of groups of people? I would get that scared feeling up to 300 times per day. I hate it. I was miserable. I lived in so much fear. I had so much fear that it impacted my speech. I once had a little Ford Courier pickup, and one day, I had to go to the parts store to buy some brake pads as they were worn out. I walked into the store and said, "Hi there! I'd like to get a pair of Ford Couriers for my brake pad."
Yes, we sometimes say things backward, but I know that this happened because of fear. I was afraid to talk to people, thus, while my mind was trying to speak to the person at the parts counter, my mind was racing with typical thoughts of fear where I would speak to myself with words of hatred.
Do you really believe that you are sick? Do you really believe that you are this label that "higher-ups" have put upon you?
Hold your head high! Not like you think that you're a bag of chips and all that, but hold your head high as though you believe in yourself and are a good, healthy, normal, well-balanced person!! And don't stop doing it! And just so that you don't think that I am leading you down an evil road of pride, these are the Holy Words of our Powerful, Almighty God! Check this out, my friend . . .
Leviticus 26:13 NLT - "I am the LORD your God, who brought you out of the land of Egypt so you would no longer be their slaves. I broke the yoke of slavery from your neck so you can walk with your heads held high."
I told you to study Colossians 2:9-15. And why? Because when the heart has been Spiritually Circumcised, this is what it means to be brought out of Egypt, which stands for the captivity of the Devil. So when Christ Circumcises our hearts, He is taking us out of the captivity of the Devil so that he is defeated in your life! You are set free! And this is the Purpose of Christ, to set us free from the Mind of the Devil.
2 Timothy 2:26 NLT - "Then they will come to their senses and escape from the devil's trap. For they have been held captive by him to do whatever he wants."
Do you see it? Jesus helps us "escape" the Devil's trap. We are held captive (to do whatever he wants), or, to have us think as he wants us to think, such as believing that we are sick.
I believe in you!
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